Monday, June 04, 2012
A title of a blog scrolling on one of my teams caught my eye and I've thought about it all day. It asked a question: "Are You Ever Satisfied With Anything You Do?" www.sparkpeople.com/mypa
Yesterday I finished a 5K in a good time for me as compared to my past 5K races BUT I had hoped to finish with a little better time. Guess if my mind lets me focus on the actually accomplished good finish time OR my inability to reach my hoped for goal pace by just seconds???!!!
Last year, I learned from a very good running coach that race time is NOT the most useful measurement of overall progress because there are too many uncontrollable variables that help or hinder. Weather. Unfamiliar terrain. Yesterday I was slowed by the bodies walking in groups in front of me at the starting line. Bodies in front of me on the race route gave me incentive to move faster so I could pass. The adrenalin of a race makes race pace different. Guess if my mind is measuring my progress based on my race finish time???!!!
My instincts want me to add but it was hotter last year, and I didn't have a 14 minute mile pace, and other apologetic and negative statements but I will resist because I am trying to experience the satisfaction.
I keep a log with my race statistics. It allows me to see trends over time. Trends can show progress, or lack of progress. I was never the type of person who ever considered racing. I avoided participation in gym class throughout my long ago high school years! Participating in a race was BIG.
My first race was in 2007. Continued and regular participation in races for over 5 years is BIG. I deserve giving myself a pat on the back and feeling a sense of satisfaction for over 5 years of training for races: both walking faster and learning to run.
I was faster yesterday than I was 5 years ago. I was faster yesterday than I was a year ago on the same race course. I chopped almost 3 minutes off my finish time compared to last year.
I'm feeling satisfied with what I have done.
And I'm feeling satisfied with recognizing that I deserve to feel satisfaction for what I have done.