Monday, June 04, 2012
I'm not always good at taking changes and going through changes. I decided to take a chance recently on a new job. I currently babysit my niece 4 days a week for about 8 hours. I don't get a lot of money for it. I decided to apply for a night job at the library. I knew that my family could use the extra help. I started the job being scared as hell, I just felt like I wasn't going to be able to handle working two jobs. I ended up really being ok with it and starting to like it.
Then, my boss said she felt I kept making the same mistakes and wasn't progressing. She said this job isn't for everyone and that it takes a lot of concentration and is very tedious. I was really upset as she was telling me this. I though, how could she be telling me this now that I finally started liking this! She told me to think about coming back on Monday and gave me the weekend to think.
I have been so torn on the issue, but have decided not to go back. I know some people tell me I should have given it another try. I really feel that in my heart I never really wanted the job. I have to remember that life is also about being happy. I have wasted too many years just doing things because I had to. I just want to follow my heart this time and do what feels right for me. I think in doing that I'm a better person to everyone around me.
I still catch myself thinking what will I do with my life, but I know that it will fall into place when it's right. For now I want to enjoy each day.