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I am slipping...but I don't want to give up!!

Sunday, June 03, 2012

I am slipping...but I don't want to give up!!

I am not sure why this is happening but I am slipping. There are several factors contributing to the slippage though.

I know others have felt this way before. I keep looking at the last 3 months and the plateau I just broke and then I do badly. It is strange I have one good day then one bad day. I am trying to take a hard look at why this is happening. Some things that are possibly a contributing factor are, work stress, hubby cooking, eating schedule and calorie limit.

One reason may be a stressful job. I am working later hours and I miss my son’s weekday baseball games. For a Mom that has missed only a couple of her kids events this is hard on me. I am emotional about it and I wish I could change it. However, I can’t until I find a new job with better hours.

I work with 3 and 4 year olds by myself in a daycare classroom. I was told I would be teaching but I am a babysitter. They add younger children to my classroom and it makes teaching more difficult. I also have to clean, take out the trash, do laundry etc. Our classroom is extremely dirty and no matter how hard I try it still is dirty. We also have a broken sink that leaks on the floor. It makes for a stressful day cleaning and watching kids and working with uncaring bosses.

I am still exercising in the mornings before work. I have little time to do anything else. I am trying to make my workouts count and using my Heart Rate Monitor to increase my intensity.

My husband is cooking dinner. I eat at 7pm now and I hate it. I am so hungry because I eat lunch at 11am so I can get to work on time. I am not allowed to eat any food at work since I work with kids. Therefore, from 11am to 7pm I do not eat. I also drink as much water as I can but during my work shift I cannot go to the bathroom unless I ask for a bathroom break by buzzing the office. (My hours are usually 1230-630) Drinking less water, waiting so long to eat and hubby cooking might be big factors.

I thought with my one year of Spark Approaching (June 22) I would be closer to onederland. It has eluded me for a while now. So many of my sparkfriends lose slowly so I feel bad for complaining. I was losing at a higher rate before.

The slipping started after a long plateau and now lower calories. I may be eating too little. I lowered my calories to 1550 a few weeks ago. When I stuck to it I had a nice loss but it is a hard amount for me to keep. Maybe the calories are too restrictive? However when I up them I stay at the plateau. But when I keep them lower I am hungry and more likely to binge.

Any suggestions would be helpful. So many Spark members have stressful jobs, and obstacles I would love to know how you overcame them. Please let me know.

This week’s work schedule is not normal either. I don’t know how I am going to make it with all this and a out of town baseball tournament next weekend. I may even have to drive a separate car because I have to work Friday morning even though I asked off for the day.

Next Week's work Schedule
Monday 11-6
Tuesday 12:30 – 6:30
Wed 830 – 630 (wow I am going to scream Wednesday)
Thursday 12:30 – 6:30
Friday 6:00am-12:00
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    Ugh! That sounds plain awful. You are working such long hours and I can't imagine a room full of kids 4 years and under. Some days my own 3 year old is more than I can take.

    I know what you mean about missing our children's events. It's heart breaking.

    I hope you are able to find some peace and balance with this. I know you will reach your goals. I have no doubt about that. I really hope you can do it in a much less stressful life though.

    *really big hugs*
    1686 days ago
    All of you are so great!!!

    And I should eat more often for medical reasons. Not sure if my doctor will write a note or not. Other teacher's bring food so I might do the same and sneak a snack when I need to. I also thought of making a healthy smoothie with some veggies and fruit. Would be a drink so less of a problem.

    As for the bathroom I just need to be more assertive and ask for the break. I drink my water but when you have to pee it is hard to swallow more water. It does not help that kids are using our class bathroom while I have to pee. lol
    1687 days ago
    For a second there, I thought you were in prison. Really? No food breaks for 6 hours? No bathroom breaks without permission? Ridiculous - no wonder you're stressed.

    Don't know what the rules are down there, but in Canada it's 1 15 minute break for every 4 hours, and if you work 6 or more consecutive hours, there's a half hour lunch break too.

    I get not eating around the kids in the event of allergies - but seriuosly, no food at all in a 6 or longer hour shift is under cruel and unusual punishment. What if you have a medical condition?

    Hope it gets better/you find a better job soon.

    Also sad for the kids who are bearing the brunt of this organiziation's lack of caring. If this is how they treat their employees, what do they think of their "meal tickets"?


    Can you try bumping your calories up just a little? 1550 seems really low if you are working out. Also, if you have a slow cooker I suggest finding some great healthy recipes the internet's full of them - so hubby doesn't have to cook and you control the intake. It works in our house.

    Good luck!
    1687 days ago
  • JANDK156
    Get your doc to write a note saying you have to eat every few hours for medical reasons (use Crohn's) and then bring almonds, string cheese, fruit, easy things to pack. And while it's been ages since I was employed, aren't there laws about breaks? Don't you get an hour or at least half an hour break for a meal in an 8 hour shift, in addition to a couple of 15 minute breaks? Don't be worried about getting someone to cover your room when you need to use the bathroom. That's a fact of life and I would not drink less to use the bathroom less.
    1688 days ago
    Your work sounds crazy! I have a home daycare so I don't have the restrictions but the kids can drive ya crazy for sure! I think it is crazy you can't eat a snack or go to the bathroom when needed! AND that you are not even doing what you were hired to do. That just adds to the stress. I wish I had some suggestions for you but I just don't know. Maybe eat a small snack as you are driving home so you are not so starved at dinner. Hope something else comes up for you soon! Hang in there! You are still exercising every day! Take care of you! Good luck!
    1688 days ago
    It does sound like your job adds quite a bit of un-needed stress. It is very unrealistic for you to not be able to eat at least a snack and have a bathroom break in your whole shift. It seems to me that they could at least provide you with 15 mins at some point. That really isn't asking all that much. I hope you are able to get it all worked out. I thought I would be much closer to onderland for my 1 year SPversary but I'm not too far from my starting point. I have myself to blame with about 99% of it. I guess I'm a very slow learner thus a very slow loser. Time will take off the pounds.
    1688 days ago
    Karen part of losing weight is the journey and like all journeys there are ups and downs. Don't beat yourself up. I know that I have been at or about the same weight for the better part of a year. I have lost and regained the same pounds. Then I moved to WA without my family and that was STRESSFUL and depressing. What I have learned is that my biggest enemy in losing weight is being overly emotional about everything. I also find that when I am exercising regularly that helps me regulate my emotions. So, I say all of that to say this, exercise is more than just weight loss. It is about helping you to be healthy for the long haul. So, just keep moving lady and don't focus so much on the pounds, but the better quality of life you are building.
    1688 days ago
    Stress is a HUGE factor in my eating/calorie burning patterns. Stress alone can make me hold onto my calories more.

    I am trying new things, learning to say no to unnecessary stress, and looking for solutions to balance my life and my health.

    You're still doing great, you are going to reach your goal!

    1688 days ago
    You're right, you DON'T want to give up! I used to work for Head Start as a social worker, not a teacher. We had the same, "no eating" rule. Well, a lot of the teachers got past that by bring in a note from their doctor stating they had special dietary needs, like eating ever couple hours. I simple string cheese, or something you could eat while walking down to take a bathroom break. I don't know... hang in there *HUGS*
    1688 days ago
    1688 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your situation! I know it can be difficult to try and lose after doing so well for a while. This happened to me also (without the additional stress) but I kept working on it and I was able to get passed the wall. Part of it could be having to wait so long to eat during the day because of this you over compensate when you get home
    because you are sooooo hungry!
    I wish you the best and just keep in mind no matter what it all comes down to baby steps that will lead you to that mile!

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    1688 days ago
    I have found myself slipping lately too... but we are still here!! Great job to you for recognizing that you are struggling and asking for help!
    Great job so far, just keep remembering that you don't want to lose that!

    You HAVE to find a way to get something to eat during the day. I don't care if you have to smuggle a banana into the bathroom and eat it. PLEASE find a way. Just because you work with kids shouldn't be a reason that you don't get to eat or take a break.

    I would look into labor laws where you live. By law if you work a certain number of hours you should be getting so long of a break. Once you are armed with that information I would be firm in addressing the situation with your bosses. I know they are uncaring but I'm sure they won't want to be hit with a lawsuit, or even the threat of one. Your metabolism is suffering. If there is someone there to relieve you for a bathroom break then they should be able to give you 5 minutes at least for a snack break. Fight for what you need.

    I'm sorry that it is so stressful. I hope that you are able to find a way to modify your schedule. Try to make healthy choices when you can eat and to eat slowly at home to savor the time you do get to eat. Also before leaving for work, especially if you can't find time to sneak in that snack, try to eat meals that are high in protein and fiber so they will stick with you longer. Maybe you could also drink some milk during the day at some point instead of water? That might help satisfy you a little too.

    Best of luck to you. Let us know how it goes. Nobody should have to endure such a situation. Thank you for also helping me to see how lucky I am in my situation. I have no excuses!
    1689 days ago
    Keep going, this will pass. We all go through this at some point. Things will get better!

    1689 days ago
  • DOCHAS79
    Dont ever give up. You are worth it. Keep trying it will get better. emoticon
    1689 days ago
    Dear KARENDEE4, I used to work in a kindy and was bogged down with keeping the classroom clean and washing and bathing the children too( 7:30am - 6:30pm) . I was angry inside as the kids parents did not know that their kids were being tortured by some mean teachers. I was very fearful to speak up( I used to be very timid) . The owner of the kindy was driving a big car and taking money from the parents but giving them bad service.my salary was usually late. I was working in a terrible environment but worse , the little kids were growing in a terrible place!!!

    I needed the money and just focused on getting my salary every month. I saved up the money, quit the job and found a better job with a better environment and a better salary. A year later I met with a parent who told me that her son was scalded with hot water in the bathroom!!!
    1689 days ago
    emoticon I hope you find a better job.. it does sound very stressful. For me, stress is the #1 culprit that keeps me from losing even when I am doing everything else well. Have you tried guided meditation? It really helps me... there are some free apps you can get for the iphone/android, or you can google some free guides. Hope things become less stressful for you soon!
    1689 days ago
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