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Do Over!!!

Sunday, June 03, 2012

About this time every year I want to redo my life and get re-inspired to be healthy again. I was going really strong there for a moment, when "bam!" I actually don't even know what stopped my momentum...
It is getting to a point where I don't even want to start again because I have failed so many times. At least that is what I think when I only look at the surface and the scale. When I really look at all the changes I have made It is amazing.
A quick look in my cupboard and you will see a huge difference from what it used to hold. They used to hold sugar, flour, bisquik, pancake mix, brownie and cake mixes and frostings; now my cupboards are filled with things like organic Gluten Free (GF) flours, oatmeal, steel cut oatmeal, and sweeteners used sparingly like agave, and real maple syrup. My frig used to only hold maybe 10% fruits and veggies like celery, carrots and apples, now I have many different kinds of vegetables and fruits available. 75% of my frig is filled with fruits and veggies.
I can walk 3 to 5 miles with no problem, I even run. I do yoga (even Bikram Yoga) and feel great after. I can even do things after my walks, before a walk around the block was followed by a nap or a long sit.
I am doing a lot of things right and I need to acknowledge this. But what the HECK is keeping my weight on, and why do I get to a certain point and then much of the weight comes back. It is so baffling. Is this some sort of self sabotaging?? Is it some emotional damage I suffered? I just don't know but I am going to keep trying until I get to my goal weight of 136LBS (if that feels like a good weight for me).
Keep going.
“People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily.”- Zig Ziglar

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    Whew...SO know what you're talking...! But yep: we're in this for the long haul...there's no turning back to the bad old ways!

    2085 days ago
  • LORI815
    Hi Kristi,
    I love that quote at the end too! I totally get what you''re talking about as far as motivation. I need someone to come over and light a huge fire under mine! LOL! You are doing so great. I don't know why we lose momentum like we do. Last year I was down farther than I'd been in a long time. Even had neighbors commenting on how I looked if they walked by and I was outside. Then...I don't know. It was like a switch turned off. Now I can't get it back. If thinking about it made you thin I'd be a toothpick but sadly it doesn't. You just have to work through it. When you can't get motivated, look at old pictures. Personnally, if WHEN I startt losing weight again, I think I'll keep 1 pair of old jeans and take them out when I don't feel motivated.

    All I do know is that YOU CAN DO IT! I can't begin to tell you just how proud I am of you and what you have accomplished. We of all people know just how hard it is to turn your like around and you're such an inspiration. Keep up the great work hun!
    2085 days ago
    Love the quote at the end of your post, and I believe that is exactly what has to happen for any real success. Don't give up! I had quit smoking on my new years resolution list for at least 15 years and every year I failed. Lost the battle that year, and then again and again! But lo and behold.....I finally won the war!!! 5 years ago I freed myself and I haven't looked back. You WILL get there if you keep trying. Don't give up. We can start as many times as we want or need to but finally one day we will stop. You WILL get there if you keep trying. (twice on purpose, for emphasis)

    2086 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/3/2012 4:52:24 PM
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