Sunday, June 03, 2012
Wow. All I can say is
I can't believe it. I just read an email from SparkPeople that I received on May 31. It said enough of you wonderful Sparkers consider me motivational that I now have one of those enviable "SparkPeople Motivator" icons on my SparkPage! (You can't see this in a blog, but I really am nearly speechless... I'm taking long pauses between sentences because I just don't know what to say!)
This was a secret wish... that ONE DAY I would be considered a motivation to others. But not now. I never dreamed it could be a day like today. How could it be? I'm struggling so much right now. My emotions are out of control. My weight has been plateaued for over a year and I have had to walk away from my New Year's resolution. There are days I truly struggle with thinking about what a loser I am and how I am never going to meet my goals. Yet here you are, cheering me on. Telling me that sharing my heart with you helps you. That somehow my effort to improve myself and my life is giving you encouragement as you do the same. That putting all my faults and failures, my goals and successes, and my hopes and dreams out there for you to read makes a difference to someone other than just me. That just by my putting one foot in front of the other day after day, you gain strength to do the same.
I am floored. And so grateful. Thank you for this honor and for the encouragement it has brought to me on an emotional day. I wish I could hug you all.
Love and hugs,