Saturday, June 02, 2012
I just finished reading a story about an 11-year-old boy named Matt with cerebral palsy who voluntarily participated in a race at school. He almost immediately falls behind the other kids but continues to move slowly around the track. Soon he is lapped. His PE teacher walks over to talk with him but he refuses to quit. He could easily have finished one lap and called it good. No one would have faulted him for that. But he keeps going. He's going to finish that last lap. His teacher is going to finish it with him. Soon his classmates join him as well chanting, "Let's go Matt". He does cross that finish line clearly exhausted and probably in pain. He crossed that finish line because he was determined to do so.
This week I quit. We had made a plan to visit a waterfall 2.5 miles in, with a gradual 700-foot elevation gain. We may have made it .75 miles. At the time I was a little bothered by it but blamed my plantar fasciitis and of course being out of shape for the aborted trip. After hearing Matt's story I feel so terribly foolish. Sure I was sweaty, in some discomfort and had to stop a couple of times to rest. But my sweet husband was there encouraging me, telling me to rest as long as I wanted to, that we could go as slow as I needed to go and reminding me of my goal (26 waterfall hikes by October). And I still quit.
I have tried to lose weight before. I have lost 20-40 pounds and for one reason or another have quit and gained the lost weight back and then some. So now I believe I know what my biggest challenge is. It is not my physical limitations but that internal voice in my head that frankly has little confidence in my success. But this time I am determined for things to be different and I believe they just might be. I have the best cheerleader in my corner, my husband Max, pom poms and all. He challenges me to push myself and is encouraging after I exercise even when it is a little walk around the neighborhood. I need to listen to all those positive voices around me until it becomes the voice I hear inside myself.
So I have included a link to Matt's story as a reminder to myself. No matter how long it takes, determination and support are what is going to get me to my goals.