Saturday, June 02, 2012
I've tried to lose weight many times before and had lost 100 pounds only to put them back on. I cant remember how many times I've sat down and wrote one of these introduction/re-commitment posts. I looked at my reasons for wanting to lose weight and I found the majority of them to be superficial. Things like "Look good in a skirt" or "Not be the biggest person in a room." I believe this to be one of the reasons I've never kept to my weight goals.
My reasons for wanting to lose weight aren't things that are for ME. They are all things that are for someone ELSE. Instead of breeding hope and drive, they inspire resentment and thoughts of everything I'm not to other people. So, this time around, I'm going to make sure I'm doing this for me and not for others. I want to feel good about myself regardless of opinions of how I look. I want to rely on myself, for my emotions, and not on the approval of others.
So, as I try to lose weight, yet again, I shall press myself to list off reasons of why I want to do this. Not what I want others to think of me. Hopefully this will help me to see that I am worth this. That this is something I actually want and not something others said I should do. So here is to dusting off the exercise machines and trying again.