Saturday, June 02, 2012
Woke up this morning with a hint of migraine – enough to keep me in bd because when I got up I immedeately started to feel nauseated and a knife in the brain. My house is a total mess it is starting to look like one in those documentaries from obsessed collectors... but I couldn´t do anything because I felt too sick. After half a day it is getting better and some salty food and a lot of fluid will make me fit to go to rehearsal this afternoon. Costume is ready and I am sort of confident. The day befor yesterday I got a total meltdown and panicked because I thought I was going to make such a fool of myself and what about all those people that pay for the tickets... after talking to others I realised that it was just an attack of "Normal" stage fright and can be handled.
This morning I also got a mail from a friend who is attending a writers course online this summer and I browsed around on the writers coach site and found a lot of inspirational tips - I am ot going to attend the course but will write a book this summer and have the idea of maybe four more... I digged out my old script for a youth book (with horses) I wrote five years ago and got refused on - and realised that I could have sent it to more than one publisher... I have the best idea to write a couple of youthn books on the subject "circus" and we can sell it at the theatre... I wrote a book of leadership that I have sold when I have been givining lectures and through the years I have sold more than 3000 books which I now know is very good for a non-fiction book in swedish from an unknown author...
My face rash is not good today and putting a lot of white makeup on it might be bad... we´ll see. Most important is to get thorugh it without collapsing or getting the migraine back!