Frustration and Transparency Pt. 1
Friday, June 01, 2012
This is the second day of going well over my calorie range (think 1,000+).
Yeah, I know.
It's the same old story. I really want something I think I shouldn't have. I eat said something, and thinking it better not to waste the guilt, eat like it's 1999. I see it happening. I know it's madness. But somehow, I surrender to the feeling. Every time.
Usually after an episode like this, I don't see the point of continuing. I don't see the point of my previous efforts. Don't see my progress as being significant enough to make up for these shortcomings. Don't see any reason not to give up.
But I have decided that this is it.
I will track my calories no matter what. I will start over after every meal. No matter what. I will do my 10 minutes a day, every day, no matter what. And I will learn how to eat in a way that nourishes and energizes no matter how damn long it takes.
So I guess, when you look at it like that, it ISN'T the same old story. It's a brand new one. One in which the big picture isn't overshadowed by close-ups of imperfections. A story that ends gloriously.