Friday, June 01, 2012
This week has been quite trying, and the last day or two especially it has been hard to stay positive and keep up my motivation. All the things dragging me down aren't workout related, but they make it hard to focus on the things I do want to accomplish.
I ran the Bolder Boulder with friends last Monday. I beat the time I had hoped to accomplish for at least 1 mile (under 11 minutes). I wasn't too far behind Kelsey, which made me happy too since she's quicker than I am. The professional photos came out, and while I'd like to say most of mine turned out well I can't. Each photo I look at is a shock to me. I've gained so much weight, and while I knew I was squishy and needed to work on it it was quite a shock to see an example of how MUCH weight I'm really carrying. That was (and still is) a hard pill to swallow. 30 Extra lbs does not do me good, and after an already rough day yesterday it was a slap to the face. A small crush to my self esteem.
Today didn't get off to much better of a start thanks to a horrific day at work. But I'm home now, I did some strength exercises, I'm going to go on a run later, and it's Friday.
So here's to putting the bitter past 48 hours away and focusing on the next few days. Almost to my first goal mark, 155 lbs, so with some hard work hopefully by next weekend I'll be there. My reward for reaching it will be to spend some alone time at a local coffee shop with a good book. I need to relax!