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My plans for June


Thursday, May 31, 2012

I decided to start June off right.. by not procrastinating and doing it one day before June 1st. I am a little disappointed in myself for the month of May, but I already knew that it might be difficult for me. I felt broken inside. It's time to turn that frown upsidedown!!

I didn't keep any of my goals for May. I will just have to forgive myself for it and move on. I am almost to the 50 pound mark. It's so close I can taste it. Of course, my urge to binge has reappeared with a vengence. My urge to fight it needs to be stronger. I am fighting it right now by blogging, so I guess that is a step in the right direction.

I've decided not to put a number on the amount of pounds I want to lose every week. The one thing I want to do is meet the goal I have set for myself for the SASS challenge. I am still doing Zumba 3 times a week, and I am taking advantage of my 30 day free pass to Curves. I've also been doing the SparkPeople Cardio Blast and Kathy Smith's Latin Rhythm Workout. I can do this.. I WILL DO THIS!!

My main concern is my urge to binge, which is very strong for the first time since I started SP. I can almost feel those demons creeping into my head telling me that I can't do this. The depression seems to be waning, but not the obsessive thoughts. I can honestly say it scares me because I have fought so hard for this. Tomorrow I am going out to buy the book that started me on my way to a healthier, happier me.. Operation Beautiful. I'm going to put those demons back down where they belong.

I am stronger than I was yesterday, tomorrow I will be stronger than I am today. I am determined and I am worth it. I am committed and I will persevere. I am beautiful and I am loved for who I am.
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LINDA! 6/2/2012 10:55AM

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JCARDINAL 6/1/2012 2:20PM

    You can kick those binge demons out the door! emoticon You CAN do this!!

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SARASMILING 6/1/2012 6:01AM

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SO proud of you! YOU CAN DO THIS!! WE CAN DO THIS!!! WE HAVE TO DO THIS!!! WE HAVE TO!
Day 1, Let's go! :)
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BONNIEMARGAY 6/1/2012 2:46AM

    I am so proud of how far you've come, and I have so much compassion for the urge to binge. Wishing you relief and great success. I highly recommend the book 50 Ways to Soothe Yourself Without Food.

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PASKALINI 6/1/2012 2:06AM

    You can do this!!! You have a huge support network here whenever you need us!

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NANDA82 5/31/2012 11:33PM

    That's the right attitude. I still struggle with chocolate but I know I can't change overnight after decades of binging. Baby steps, patience, and accountability are key for me. You can definitely do it! emoticon

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BEACHGIRL328 5/31/2012 10:07PM

    I love it! I am planning the same thing. I am watching my food intake and i am going to handle my stress a lot better. I also paln on the gym every night, if i can't get in once or twice a week but it must be at least 5 times a week! June is going to ROCK!!!

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RONOSOF 5/31/2012 9:31PM

    I have awful urges. Stress and emotions... let's fight together!

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LIV2RIDE 5/31/2012 9:17PM

    emoticon Just take it one day at a time, one minute at a time if necessary. Lean on your spark friends we will be here to support you!

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