I have been working so hard and trying to do a great job at work so that I can have a good review and a raise to go with it.

Well the review was today and it went the opposite way than I thought. I got written up for wrong cash handling and have been warn that if this continues I am out of a job. The only good thing that came out of this degrading review was that I am great with the customers and that they do notice that I don't stand around waiting for them to tell me what to do. I get the job done. They have noticed how I am always cleaning the area around the cash desks and the shelves in front of it.

So I am going to take this positive note and let the negative slip by me. I know that I am a great cashier and that I give back the correct change at every transactions. I am so careful with money handling that I was so shock to hear that on some of my shift my cash was short.

I know that this is not me because everyone uses the same cashier registers that I am on. We all have our own log in ID's and we have to log out when some one else take over.

I do know on a couple of occasions that I have forgotten to log out and someone has used my # so this is what I think has happen. That the other cashier handled the money wrong.

So Lesson learned. I will make dang sure that I log off every single time I leave my cash desk even if I am only going a few feet away to clean another cash desk or shelf or to stock up a shelf.

I left work feeling degraded and upset with myself and all I wanted to do was to quite but you all know me.

I am not going to quite. I am going to show them that I am not the one who is handling the cash wrong and losing the company money.

I am also going to continue to take notes on every void or cash problems that I have so that I have something to fall back on.

So unfortunately when John came to pick me up I was an emotional wreck and all I said to him was that I had a very bad day and I don't want to talk about it.

I still don't but I know that if I don't write this down I won't be able to sleep tonight and I certainly won't be able to be in a good fame of mind to go to work tomorrow.

Oh by the way I won't be getting that raise that I thought that I deserve because of this bad money handling. I am sure a few others won't be getting their either.

So while I am still working for this company I am still looking for a new job. One that treats me with respect and pays me for what I am worth and not to degrade me in front of other associates just to make them feel superego.

So that is all I have to say on this matter and I wish you all a good night.

I hope that by having a good night sleep I will wake up in a better mood and can face another day at work.

I can and will do it for I am stronger now that I was since I started Sparks.

So I thank you for reading this blog and I thank you for all your comments and prayers that you will be sending me.

So good night and sweet dreams.

Sandraland is closed.

PS

The only good thing that came out of this day was that I finished another stuff Owl. I spent the last four hours crocheting and sewing up the little guy.

Like I have said in many of my older blogs, Crocheting/knitting is therapy for me. Thank goodness for that or I would be paying through the nose instead getting paid for making up something cute for my customers.