Today lacked no drama. Glad I prepared with rehearsing a positive outlook.

I got up at 4am to pray for my DH and his meetings - end of day he was still going and things were looking good!

I then got ready and did the wheelchair challenge and got myself to my infusion. This may be the last one for awhile since, to private pay for the Remicade would be $10,000 every five weeks. It is what has got me going again, but that will not be happening. I'm calling the company tomorrow to see is there are other ways to go...People that stop completely and start up again after a long stop are likely to have reaction. So I'd like to know how long I can go before this risk comes up.

I met with a person in an HR department today and they offered to review my resume for me. They even gave me some job direction. I'm energized by the possibilities.

I had Vietnamese salad rolls (num!) with my Mom today and helped take her to her hair appointment. She remarked at how well I was getting the chair in and out of the car, hopping around and generally wheeling over most terrain. My arms have gotten stronger!

I have an appointment with my foot doctor tomorrow, I'm so hoping he tells me I can get out of the chair and start putting weigh on the foot. I will have to go back to him at the three month mark to get the screws out, but I'm hoping to lay out a plan for my own rehab until that point so I don't have the expense of other visits. I've already started to do scar mobilization and gently flexing the foot. Hopefully I get thumbs up to swim.

For every golden day, which is what this one felt like to me, there is a yang to the ying. And so it was today. My heart and prayers go out to the family and friends of the victims of the shootings today in Seattle. As I was having my infusion, I watched as the news reports came on - five shot in the northend of town and one in the downtown. I haven't rechecked the news but at the time three were dead and the other two were in critical condition. I watched and heard as sirens and helicopters came to Harborview, Seattle's trauma 1 center just down the street. Not since 911 did the whole feel completely in chaos as man hunts were on in two parts of the city and schools were on lock down. How can sense ever come out of random killings. Sad, very sad. Just because I use F.U.N. (see previous blog) doesn't mean I'm guarded from the emotions that stem from situations like this. May the dead rest in a heavenly place and may the critical victims have the best of care/recovery.

P.S. Just read the news, all five of the people that were shot in the University/Roosevelt area died and I already understood that the woman downtown had died making six total lost to homicide today here. Then they found the gun man and both shooting locations were connected...the shooter knelt down and shot himself. Oh, please let tomorrow just be boring. I know Seattle it known for the rain, but it doesn't need to come from my eyes any more. Enough.