Wednesday, May 30, 2012
'I was at the mall today, trying to find a formal evening gown.....I couldn't find anything. I even went into a store [one that shall remain nameless] and asked for a size 15. I was told that they don't carry size 15, they only go up to size 13........I went out of there crying. Even after having lost 40lbs and going down a couple sizes, there are still places I can't shop! Ridiculous!'
Well, I will have you know that I walked into that same store today and was able to try on 5 dresses!! I didn't buy any of them because I didn't really like the way they looked on me, but the main thing is that they fit! I can shop at that store now if I so choose. Now that I was looking around, I realize that store is aimed at the 'junior' population of girls, but whatever. I can wear their stupid clothes now lol. I have found my love for shopping all over again. My boyfriend tells me that if I wear girl clothes my confidence will increase (I'm really a jean/t-shirt kind of gal) and he was right. I have at least 15 dresses in my wardrobe that even a year ago, I would never have thought I would buy just one! Also, I am going to Gay Pride this weekend and I will be wearing a bikini top and skirt-showing off much of my skin. I wasn't sure if I should or not, but my BFF tells me that I should because I have lost so much weight and I need to show it off :0) Everyone at work keep telling me how great I look, and how amazing I am for losing 56lbs. All of these things really help keep me motivated. Also, just being able to go into a store and buy clothing without having to ask the most embarrassing question, 'Excuse me, do you have this in a larger size?'