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I swore I was not going to be negative on here again.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Hi, I swore I wasn't going to be negative on here and blog negative thoughts, but something is just really bothering me.

I hate being fat, but can't do anything about it if I want to eat all the time. I really do good during the time I work, but go home and I eat like a pig on weekends I eat. I don't know, but I don't, I don't want to be fat anymore. I've been fat all my life and for once in my life I would like to be normal. Not having recommended surgery from my doctor or prescription pills. I have been there and done the pill thing, and that stuff is not good. And surgery, I am really chicken to do. I hear so many bad things about the surgery. I know I can do this, but why can't I be strong and do it now. I feel so weak and helpless. Plus ashamed to know I have lost 200 pounds and have gained half back. Can't tell I have lost a thing, AGAIN! I was feel so good at one time and I thought that feeling would last forever to help me keep this stuff off, but evdently NOT!!! I keep on holding on to hope or maybe help, hoping it will come alone and give me some really SWIFT kick in the butt and knock some sense in my head. I need to have some kind of modivation to start again, Can't stay like this forever, and I am not going no where but up.

One of our board members critised not only me, but the whole office for being fat. He said we need to be examples of our county and we should be thin. And we are not setting examples for our community looking like we do. Well that is true, but what is he to tell us that. He said anyone that is in a expertise of nutrition or exercise should be thin. and we are the picture of unhealthy. It was trouble for him to say that, plus he is blogging we like elephants and things. so cruel I think. oh well, I don't really want to go into more detain with that. BUt what he is saying is so true, but really cruel also.

I just need to get myself together for me and not for no one but me. Hope you don't mind the Bla, Bla, BLa, but it does feel better to just tell someone about how you feel.

Regina
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JOYCECAIN 6/24/2012 8:20PM

    IF YOU CAN'T BE NEGATIVE HERE, WHERE ELSE CAN YOU BE NEGATIVE? NOW COME ON GIRL. YOU HAVE TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOU. TAKE CARE OF BUSINESS. I AM HERE IF YOU NEED TO SOUND OFF, I DO NOTHING ELSE. I AM HOME ALL DAY. SEND ME A SPARKMAIL, AND YELL. TAKE CARE LOVE JOYCE

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OTEN36 6/22/2012 5:34PM

    Regina,
How is your week going?
What are your plans for the weekend?
I'm working thru Monday evening but then I'm excited to have a few weeks off. I hope to get a walk in 5 times each week. That's my goal along with some new recipes to change things around.
Take Care,
Dee

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QUILTINGB52 5/31/2012 6:05AM

    Losing weight is not something you can become "pressured into". This is something that YOU have to want for yourself!!

I use deep breathing techniques, self-talk and exercise to work through those frustrating times that all I want to do is "sit and eat". I also don't bring anything into the house that would trigger uncontrolled eating (NO chips, chocolate, ice cream, etc).

Make snacks available - take a day to prepare serving sizes of snacks you enough (fruit & veggies).

Find an activity that doesn't feel like exercise ~ do something that you really enjoy. Perhaps it's something as simple as gardening, riding a bike or walking the dog. When you really enjoy an activity, you don't feel like you are exercising.

And by all means - blogging is a wonderful way to vent out your frustrations!! I use it often just to clear my mind.....

Baby steps.....just keep moving forward, together we CAN do this!!

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SHERYLDS 5/30/2012 6:02PM

    Hey Regina....expressing yourself is always good
and as for the Boss...THE WEIGHT OF THE NATION had an excerpt on health costs going up for the overweight and obese...so a lot of companies are going to start harping on weight issues...and may even use it in hiring practices...just like smoking.

but you've been through this and you know that the only way to be successful is to change what you are doing when you are gaining.
That may mean, changing the way you eat...even from the last time you lost. If you did low calorie balanced...maybe try low carb.
Find a way from losing any more ground.
There is no end...just new beginnings

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CAROLJEAN64 5/30/2012 5:34PM

    First remind your boss that you need to be healthy.... and thin isn't necessarily healthy.
Second, please seriously consider therapy. You could learn how to deal with the negative thinking that sabotages you at every turn.
Third, never apologize for being negative on a blog.... you will be amazed how venting can often relieve some pressure and allow you to think.
Fourth (and last, I promise), when you feel overwhelmed and negative, stop for a moment and change your breathing and muscles. Notice the tenseness in your body and the shortness and shallowness of your breath. Consciously relax your body, sit in a comfortable position, close your eyes and inhale as deeply as you can to the count of three, then exhale as deeply as you can to the count of three. All breaths are through your nose. I have even gone into restrooms at parties or work to take a few moments to literally collect myself this way.

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