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Just awful

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

These past few days have been really horrible, and yesterday was no better, where I live is a very nice place, beachy, sunny, beautiful happy people, but unfortunately not very safe.. yesterday I got a call at work to come home cause someone broke in and took most of our stuff (I live with my sister), luckily noone was home and all that was lost is material and nobody got hurt. But I find myself keeping it together as I usually do, but inside I feel that I have had many challenges so far this year, and I have kept it together for my family thoroughout them all, this time, I feel like I might crumble a bit and I am scared of letting that happen.

I know it will all be ok, I just have to give it a few days and calm down but I honestly fear losing control, I dont want to be a wreck, but I also need some sort of catharsis, hopefully this entry will help.

It is not surprising to me that the first thing I did was order a ton of food when I got the lunch call at work, and to be honest I am not even hungry, I know this is just me pretending to deal with everything but not really dealing at all, I still have time to sit and rethink my decisions so I will do that.

I know this post is not as cheery as I usually am, but this too shall pass.

I hope everyone is doing wonderful.

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    Thanks everyone! I am really grateful for your good wishes and nice words, I feel so much energized today and I think 90% back to my cheery self lol

    HAWAII5YEARS - Indeed we are both unharmed, thank you so much for your kind words.

    LMATTHEWS12111 - It already is!! Thank you! :)

    SEASONS__CHANGE - Unfortunately no insurance :s it is not very common in the Dominican Republic with these type of items, but after this I am definitely going to look into it!

    BEARGODDESS - Thank you so much for your words. I am actually much better today, yesterday was a bit more difficult, I felt like in limbo, but now I am just getting back on my feet quite nicely.. again, thank you so much!

    CRYSTAL_MOM - I agree! and I thank you so much for your prayers.

    SHAWNMIKE1 - hahah You made me laugh so much! You practically described what I was telling my friends I wanted to do yesterday but didnt get to do yet! Might have to go crazy on a pillow when I get home tonight! lol Thanks so much for your comment :)

    LIZZYP609 - Thank you! I am sorry to hear that someone broke into your house also, even if they didnt take anything its a very big invasion of your privacy, your home is the one place where you are supposed to feel safe and it is not nice to have someone break that feeling of safety. I am glad nothing happened to you then. Thanks for your comment and encouragement.

    GMO_JEN - It is going better today! Thank you so much!!!

    Coming online today and finding all the comments you all left here has certainly been the highlight of my day so I thank you all! Hope everyone has a lovely day full of sunshine!

    2061 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/31/2012 2:51:00 PM
    I am so sorry your house was robbed, but so glad that you and your sister are safe. As you said, this will pass, it still is an awful situation. I hope today is going better.
    2061 days ago
  • LIZZYP609
    Sorry about what happened. I had someone break in my house once and it really isn't a good feeling. I never felt fully safe there again and those idiots didn't even take anything!
    It is really good insight you have about turning to food to "deal" with your emotions. Just goes to show you can do this! Learning how to really deal instead of covering emotions is hard work. Again, You can do this!!
    2062 days ago
    You are totally allowed to not be cheery! If i was you i would be P'sssd! But the good thing is NO ONE WAS HOME! You are safe and although it does suck probably most material possessions can be replaced. You need to vent and hoot holler and scream would probably help to hit something...maybe a pillow or heavy bag or even a guy friend. This shall pass and you again will be cheery...every now and then we all loose control just make sure you take it back! emoticon
    2062 days ago
    Glad you are both ok. Things can be replaced, and I pray for you to have peace in the middle of all of this.
    2062 days ago
    Oh sweetie. It's a little hard to feel cheery when you feel violated, as I'm sure you must. I'm so sorry that this happened to you and you must feel very vulnerable, although I can tell by this blog that you're a very strong lady. I'm glad that no one was hurt.

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    2062 days ago
    What a horrible thing to happen and glad no one got hurt. I can't imagine what you're going through. Hopefully, the items that were stolen will be covered under the Insurance.

    2062 days ago
  • LMATTHEWS12111
    Hope everything gets better for ya!
    2062 days ago
    emoticon It totally sucks that you were robbed. Thank goodness neither you nor your sister was there or got hurt.
    2062 days ago
    Thank you for the good wishes.

    I do think this sucks but to be honest, I think I am not as upset about the whole thing as I could have been, I just feel like a lot of stuff has happened lately and its hard for me to keep it together so at some point ill probably just go into an empty room and scream! lol I feel quite good, I just need to vent, I am glad to be able to do so here.

    Thanks again both of you, I appreciate your comments and encouragement.

    2063 days ago
    I am so sorry that some loser that needs to go out and get a job, came to your home and stole the things that you and your sister worked hard for! It really pisses me off when things like this happen! Yes, they are material things but they are your material things. Thank God no one was there!! What is this world coming to!! It seems like it's getting worse and worse! You are right, this too shall pass and again, I'm sooooo sorry that you are having to deal with this crap!

    2063 days ago
    emoticon Glad everyone is okay.
    2063 days ago
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