Wednesday, May 30, 2012
These past few days have been really horrible, and yesterday was no better, where I live is a very nice place, beachy, sunny, beautiful happy people, but unfortunately not very safe.. yesterday I got a call at work to come home cause someone broke in and took most of our stuff (I live with my sister), luckily noone was home and all that was lost is material and nobody got hurt. But I find myself keeping it together as I usually do, but inside I feel that I have had many challenges so far this year, and I have kept it together for my family thoroughout them all, this time, I feel like I might crumble a bit and I am scared of letting that happen.
I know it will all be ok, I just have to give it a few days and calm down but I honestly fear losing control, I dont want to be a wreck, but I also need some sort of catharsis, hopefully this entry will help.
It is not surprising to me that the first thing I did was order a ton of food when I got the lunch call at work, and to be honest I am not even hungry, I know this is just me pretending to deal with everything but not really dealing at all, I still have time to sit and rethink my decisions so I will do that.
I know this post is not as cheery as I usually am, but this too shall pass.
I hope everyone is doing wonderful.