Everyday I make unhealthy choices. The truth is, I need to be focused to the point of obsession (at least in the beginning) to consistently make healthy choices. That's "code" for diet because that's really what happens. I focus, cut calories, call it healthy choices but in the end it feels like a diet. The cuts are temporary. Bad habits return.
It's hard to focus and obsess about what I eat and how much I exercise when life has me so distracted.
I'm stressed by not being in my own home (2 more days until we move....Friday is the big day!)
I'm depressed that my boys are about to leave for the summer to be with their dad. They'll be gone about 10 weeks. I've never been more than two without them. They leave in less than 48 hours and I'm and EMO mess over it.
I'm having a hard time being excited about the move-in with the boys leaving the day before.
I'm job hunting too. I'll need to start wiring again soon. I don't want to do in-home childcare anymore. I don't want / can't be a preschool teacher anymore (my vocal chords can't handle circle time more than once a week) and I'd like to make good use of the BA I'm still paying for. That has me looking into new positions and possibilities. Both are exciting and terrifying at the same time.
Exercise will help me with this stress, I know it will but the stress is zapping my motivation, my desire to try, my will to succeed.
I wan to curl up in a ball and cry.
But, I can't, I must soldier on
SO, how do I override my challenges and make the choices I know I need to? I'm still working on that one. I know what my issues are, now I need to find a way to work around them and to overcome them.