Wednesday, May 30, 2012
So yesterday I did so well. I ended the day with a big salad with tuna for dinner, that put me right at the low end of my calorie range and if I wanted a snack I could go to the higher end. It was a nice evening so we had a fire in the backyard and the neighbors saw so they came over. They brought stuff for S'mores. I never thought once about not eating them or even just having one. I just didn't think...period! It wasn't until I was getting ready for bed that I realized what I had done. I had had two S'mores (made with Reese's cups) and then two toasted marshmallows after that! There went my good day that I was so proud of. This happens so much to me. I need to become more aware, but I'm not sure how. I guess making the commitment to journal EVERYTHING! I journal something everyday, just not every bite that goes in my mouth. If I make that commitment, hopefully I'll think twice before I shovel it in. I'll have to consider whether or not I want to see it in writing on my tracker or not.
But the other challenge I face is that I get resentful at having to track every bite! It makes me mad that I have to do that and others don't. But I guess its the hand I've been dealt and if I want to be healthy I have to get over that mindset.