Facing the Truth and Getting Back On Track
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
This past year has been a very stressful one for me. Stress at work, stress over money, and stress in my personal relationships. As a school teacher, each year is different in the amount of stress you have to deal with. I love kids and working with them, but sometimes you can get a mix of students who do not click. When this happens, you find yourself spending more and more time being a referee instead of being a teacher. When this happens you find yourself behind the eight ball when it comes to making sure everything gets covered and that your students are prepared for the wonderful tests the state deems are important, instead of letting us teach and prepare students for the next year. So glad this year is over with and I hope my colleagues and I did a better job of splitting up students who should not be together next year, than my former boss did. Many of us feel that our former boss got in one last jab at us when the class lists were made, because I was not the only one in this position.
Job Stress= Stress Eating!
Since January, I have had way too many unexpected bills come up. Two car repair bills, new mower, new dishwasher, and a new hot water heater. I keep waiting for the next bomb to fall that's going to cost me a small fortune I don't have. Oh, wait, one did fall and explode. I got a speeding ticket yesterday on my way home from a small weekend respite designed to help destress my life so I can get back on track with my healthy choices. Granted, that one was my fault. Did I mention the teachers' union voted to take a pay freeze for two years and the cost of living has kept increasing?
Money Stress=Stress Eating
Over the years, friends have come and gone out of my life, and each time it has hurt, some more than others. You would think that by this point in my life I wouldn't let these things get to me so much. If someone chooses to no longer be a part of my life, I need to stop putting the blame on myself and put it where it belongs, on them. I have always tried to be a good friend, someone who actually listens and cares, someone who is not fake and tries to keep it real. I've tried to live by the credo of do unto others as you would have done unto you. I know that there have been times in my life where I have suffered from depression and have drawn into myself, but those are the times when I have needed my friends the most, over the past year that has not happened. I've always tried to be there for my friends who have suffered from the same malady. I believe that true friends stick by you through the good and the bad in your life and in their life, they don't disappear or replace you. Life is so short, too short for me to keep letting people into my life who don't want to truly be a genuine part of my life. I would rather have a small group of truly genuine people who know the true meaning of friendship, than a whole bunch of people who are only there for when they need something or need one more name to add to their Facebook list of contacts.
Friendship Stress=Stress Eating
It is time to take back some control and be honest with myself. I have put back on some of my weight that I had lost over the last two years and the madness has got to stop now. I need to focus on what is good for me, who is good for me, and who is really in my corner for the long haul (not for when they can squeeze me in). I want friends and family in my life who are supportive, loving, willing to listen, and who don't feel the need to put me down in front of others to make themselves look better, and in return they will get these same things from me.
STOP THE STRESS=STOP THE EATING!!!!