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A Hot Mess

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Yes, that mess would be me. I seem to be floundering a bit. I'm hanging on without gaining, I've been hanging around the weight since the beginning of the year. But I can't seem to break out of hibernation mode. I didn't want to leave my house this weekend. I did - but probably only because it was my mom's b-day Friday, then on Saturday I ran out of dog food. I was supposed to go to a dog show - that I paid $60 to enter - and I didn't go to that either. Just blew it off. I'm not depressed or anything like that, I'm just feeling.....hmmmm, really anti-social? I'm not really sure but that's the best way I can explain it. I've never really been miss social butterfly, but this has been a bit much even for me. It doesn't seem to affect my on-line activities in Sparkville but I feel like I should be living in a cabin in the woods yelling at people to "Get offa my property ya varmints!!" All my co-workers will say "she was so such a nice gal, we just never saw that coming...." when I go bonkers and get put in a rubber room. At least I hope! Maybe they'll be saying "yep - saw that coming a mile away."
Anyway....I did do birthday brunch with my mom and sis on Friday. We went to Denny's. I had not been there in years and years but mom wanted to go there because you get a free breakfast on your birthday. I was paying and offered to go anywhere she wanted, but nope, she wanted to go to Denny's. She was darned well going to have her free breakfast!! It was fun and we all had a nice chat.
So my short term goal that I set of losing 10-15 lbs by memorial day didn't happen and now I need to set something new. I'm going to think about what I want to do and how I'm feeling and get back to you on that.
I appreciate all my wonderful spark friends, I think going through this sticky spot without all of you would be way tougher than it has been. Thank you, thank you!!
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    great story!!!
    1908 days ago
    I know I am late coming to this I just felt like my get up and go got up and went so I thought your blog was a good fit for me today LOL! I am sure we will both get back on track again though !
    1998 days ago
    I like to be social when outside the home, but once at home, I don't like to talk to people on the phone or interact with others. There's a time to socialize and a time to be alone. It doesn't make us worse people, we just have to be selfish at times.
    2014 days ago
    Plateaus definitely happen . . . and at least you didn't gain. That's a positive. Bummer about skipping the dog show, but sometimes taking a break is good too. Too many dog shows can mess with your head!
    2063 days ago
    emoticon I got sick on vacation and now have not been to the pool for about three weeks. I need to go!!! We will do this!
    2064 days ago
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    I can so relate! There are times I want to go NOWHERE. And next month I will have been here a year and have little to no weight loss to show for it. But I do think I'm slowly getting healthier.
    2064 days ago
    Saw the title of the blog on my friend feed and had to check out the blog. You're so funny! I really enjoyed the read. Can also relate to two things. Being perfectly happy not leaving the house for a few days and a house in the woods with lots of animals.

    When I get into the stay at home mood, I just force myself to do an activity. I always enjoy the activity and glad I took the big step out the doors.
    2064 days ago
    I imagine many of us are just like you. So long as you are enjoying your time with you, nothing else matters. There are so many people who have decided they have no use for any public setting. They meet the bulk of their on the internet so why do they need to subject themselves to rude behavior and road rage?

    Still, it sure is nice to go out and brighten someone's day with a smile or a kind word on a stroll or hike emoticon

    Especially if they have a emoticon

    BTW, mom is my kinda gal nothing like a free birthday meal at Denny's!
    2064 days ago
    Hmmm, would it sound weird if I told you that I can totally relate and that I AM a social butterfly (well, really more a crusty ol' moth, but I digress)? I could totally be a hermit if I had my animals with me. Anyway.
    I also know all too well what it is like to be stuck; I've been spinning my wheels on the same 8 or 9 pounds for the last YEAR!
    Maybe we could challenge each other? I dunno.
    I did get out this weekend (our club hosted an agility trial and I worked all weekend). Fun, fun, fun...except for when it was raining Saturday morning. LOL

    2064 days ago
    Can I move to the mountains & be a hermit with you?
    Wait. That defeats the whole hermit idea.
    Other than high school & college, I've never been a social butterfly, either. I really enjoy doing things by myself, whether it is in my house or not. Maybe it is because I don't feel like I get much alone time? Anyways, I don't think it is too weird not to want to leave the house!
    Weren't you going on hikes with your boys last year? Seems like you had a lot of fun doing that & had some neat pictures. Maybe you need to schedule a hiking day? Just to breathe some fresh air.
    Not that Denny's doesn't have fresh air, lol.
    2064 days ago
    Sweet dear friend...I have been where you are at 1,000 times! You sound like you are STUCK. I get that. I battle some measure of "stuck-ness" nearly every day. The only thing that helps me out of it is to PLAN, and that includes my social calendar, downtime...all of it. Moderation is what works best for me and Lord knows, I need structure.

    Some times I need to be with people.

    Some times I need to be alone.

    Some days I don't know which way to turn. Some times I just have to pick a direction.

    Yes, I think you need some fresh new goals. Yesterday is gone. NO ONE judges you, here. This is your "safe landing zone." We all get it!

    I would think of some things that make you happy and take the baby steps to do them. Even if you don't feel like it. If you continue to feel in a slump, you might want to talk to your doctor about depression. Lord knows, I have gone that route multiple times.

    We are here with you. Today is a new day. And the next day a newer one.

    Baby steps, baby steps!
    2064 days ago
    If you have workout DVD's and tapes and/or Comcast On Demand, you can do your workouts at home - and still have the time to run those varmints off your property! emoticon

    I know what you mean, though, about not really having the get-up-and-go. I just want to hang out at home and relax. Even the thought of talking to my friends on the phone holds no appeal for me. I still love them and all, but I'm feeling the need for more "me" time than usual.

    Maybe it's the time of year. Maybe it's the weather. We'll both eventually break out of it; the trick is to make sure we don't lose track of our goals in the meantime.
    2064 days ago
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