Tuesday, May 29, 2012
I am learning so much about myself on this journey. I have done some things very well and others I really struggle. I am trying to come up with my list of things to do every day. I want to do these things most every day and I know that by doing them I will feel better and the weight will come off.
But, every time I feel that I am just starting I also feel that the road is long and unpassable. Somehow this journey will never end. I worry that I will never be happy eating healthy. I will never feel fit on a walk. I will never like how look in my clothes. I will never feel like I look good again. I worry that it will never happen.
I worry so much that I will never look good in my clothes. From the front and the side. I know that I am looking better. But to look good. That is a whole other issue. So I am working to day on my daily list. Tomorrow I will put it into the goals tracker. That is a wonderful tool that I seem to have forgotten I want to use.
This list will be great for me. Not just arbitrary but, something meaningful to do from now until my birthday in October. I want to be proud of my weight on my new drivers license.
Here I go with another day one.