Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Just noticed when you get on Spark and it goes to the start page...I don't get to see it very long...before it clicks on to my own page...but I did read, "Get Thin for Free!" And I realized that's what I had done. Sure I spent plenty of money on good healthy food, but I sure saved a lot on that fast food that used to be the main part of my diet. I bought a few weight loss memoirs and they really inspired me, but I also found hundreds of weight loss blogs (on Spark and elsewhere) that motivated me as well! And all those blogs---completely FREE! You CAN lose weight for FREE! And I didn't stop when I was pleasingly plump, I just kept going! I actually did get THIN! Okay I'm not truly thin, but I can feel my ribs, especially when I lay in bed and my hips bones when I'm standing up, so I'm not sure if my frame is up for me losing much more. I am down to 147.4 this morning and that makes me very very happy, because it means I have reversed the upward trend of the scale and it's coming back down. I am determined not to gain weight over this recovery period. I don't want people at work talking about me behind my back about how much weight I have gained. You can't believe what a big motivator that is!
I had a rough couple of days. After several days of improvement I felt horrible Sun. and Mon. I was running a fever and felt absolutely awful for long periods of time til the fever would break. The bladder problem does seem better, and it's such a relief to have that catheter out, anything would feel better than that. For some reason how they had catheter in, it wouldn't drain. The nurse would come in and see the bag was empty and take it off the little thing that hooked it to my body and hold it out and tons of pee would empty into the bag. I woke up in the hospital after surgery on Wed. morning, simply miserable. My bladder felt like it was ready to explode (I thought if this is what this surgery did to me I'm really sorry I ever had it!), those white compression socks they give you were squeezing my fat and excess skin, even my toes were hurting in those damned things, I wanted that catheter out, I wanted the IV out, I wanted my own clothes on, and I wanted to go home. When I called the nurse to tell her she needed to drain that catheter, she came in and complained about how the catheters they get from surgery are often like this. SO FIX IT! She said my urine was much clearer and after she completely drained me, she took out the catheter. About an hour later I went to the bathroom and it felt so good to pee on my own. They unhooked the IV, but left it in, I got in my own pajamas and walked the hallway for a bit. At that point they decided I was fine and I got to go home jut before lunch. They asked me if I wanted to stay for lunch...NO THANKS! Hospital food would help you lose weight I bet..it's so bad!
My blood pressure dropped alarmingly low after surgery. I had forgotten it did that after my hernia repair last year, and they told me to be sure and mention this if I have surgery in the future. I had readings like 90/40. It slowly came back up--maybe it was that super sweet jello they made me eat! It's weird to have such low BP after fighting high numbers for so many years.
My appetite still isn't completely back and I'm trying to take advantage of it. Hubby offered to take me out for lunch yesterday. I thought putting on real clothes and doing my hair might make me feel better, so we went to Applebee's. Even though the Bruschetta chicken I always get was on the menu, after I ordered it, she came back and said they don't have it anymore! So I got Fiesta Lime chicken. not a good choice, I haven't checked the calories on that yet, but I only ate half, so it couldn't have been horrendous. And since we didn't get around to going until almost 4 p.m., we just had ice cream for supper. Oh and I had a banana after I got up from the nap I took when we got home. While we were eating I spiked another fever. I was freezing and miserable and just wanted to get out of the restaurant and into my hot car. The "regular" pants were digging into my waist and I wanted my warm comfy sweat pants back on.
So this recovery isn't going as well as I had hoped. I just thought I would feel better and better every single day and after a week would be back to normal. I have no energy, was a little depressed during those times when I wasn't feeling good, and I feel so weak. I'm also not all there mentally...very forgetful and strange. I go back to the doctor tomorrow, I'm hoping I don't spike any more fevers, but I'm going to tell her about it in case I have an infection.
I didn't walk either Sunday or Monday, after I went a whole half mile Saturday evening. I want to get back out there today and try to go just a little further than hubby & I went Sat. I feel like I'm back at the beginning again, I go so slowly! Takes me 15 minutes to go half a mile! I do feel better today so I'm hoping the fevers are a thing of the past and recovery is going to get back on track.
I know one thing---I got THIN for FREE! And there is nothing bad about being THIN, a few drawbacks maybe, things that nobody even considered...but it is still so much better than being FAT! So much better. Thanks Spark!