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Destroying Myself Slowly

Monday, May 28, 2012

Car is fixed, was full of fuel, it now needs a transmission flush.

I am working at night, have a casual sex partner, and am destroying myself slowly with vendor machine food.

Am trying to return to school to be a phlebotomist, it is not cheap, $2500. I need scholarship money ASAP.

I would love to exercise again. I have tried to meet a couple of people on here to go walking at least. I am a fast walker. I know I do not post on here that often, but that is because I rely on my clothes to tell me how I am doing and not a scale or getting some &*#$ing points. This is not Weight Watchers. This is my one and only life, and can't waste time with trying to add up points to get to some trophy I cannot touch :/
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  • v RUBYEMMA775
    I found a great job I love and never letting go. I have been with them since July 2013.
    Got rid of the car mentioned in this blog post a couple of months ago and drive a car with a warranty and all the bells and whistles. Very emotional ordeal for me because my kids grew up in that car.
    Have a boyfriend and have been in love with him since high school, which is where we met and dated briefly. He is long distance, the only frustrating part. He has been in love with me since high school, but we moved away from each other.
    My son lived with his dad for a whole year and moved back 6 months ago. I cried the whole time he was gone, was mad at him for leaving, proud of his father for taking such good care of him and am ashamed about being mad at my son. He was just being a kid who loves his dad and wanted to spend time with him.
    379 days ago
  • v JIBBIE49
    I hope you got a job. I use to donate plasma and admired the women who worked there and dealt with those of us giving plasma. I know a woman who went to Medical Laboratory school for two years and worked for 40 years as a lab tech and it was a good job that paid well.
    379 days ago
  • v RUBYEMMA775
    Happy Independence Day!

    I would love to work out but I am afraid I would hurt myself. right now I only get about 4 hours sleep.

    Would toning/strength training for 15 minutes a day at least be better than nothing, or would i need to sleep 8 hours to really see results? This is my dilemma. Work out and see nothing, or not work out and....

    Aha moment, finally!!!
    1457 days ago
  • v MARVEEME
    So, how's it going now?

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    Happy Independence Day!
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    1457 days ago
  • v ROBI1976
    Everything looks uglier to me the next day...lol. I get the destroying yourself slowely. I went from being a runner to being a smoker after quitting for 3 years emoticon
    1493 days ago
  • v RUBYEMMA775
    Ouch...guess I put this in the wrong place.

    Looks a lot uglier the next day :/
    1493 days ago
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