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OH, I just don't care what I look like! VS I accept myself as is today!!!


Monday, May 28, 2012

What's the difference? IT's a huge internal difference. Looking at my reflection and seeing curves - sometimes they are embraced, but sadly more often than not I find myself disappointed in who I am. I saw that reflection today and the curves are more fluffy than firm. And my response to the other me was "Oh, I just don't care anymore what I look like!" But as I often have in the past, I try to work past those unhealthy thoughts!!! I retract the statement and say "I love and accept myself as is today!" I don't always believe it, but I figure if I keep saying it enough eventually I will believe it and stand true with those words. They will no longer be words, but loving feelings. Not that long ago I could look in the mirror and see firm, healthy curves - it's those times that I found those words were received more freely!! As I have said recently, I am feeling a bit - shall we say - unsuccessful!!! So many of you have sent love and support when I am not feeling optimal. It helps, so thank you!!! I will continue to ignore the reflection that only notices fluffy curves and criticizes them, I will admire the reflection for who she is today, knowing full well when I take care of my body and make healthy choices I am a happier person and the words "I accept myself as is today!" is truly more a feeling than just a group of words!

Goal for the week (still loving baby steps) is to eat more fruits and veggies this week (I'd like to see them be the main part of my meals).
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FITNHEALTHYKAL 6/1/2012 11:51AM

    AJ, DO IT!!!!! Admire you for you today and everyday because girlfriend you have so much to admire! I know how difficult it is to look and SEE you for who you truly are inside and out; trust me but I also know that from over here where *I* stand, you are drop dead gorgeous and I mean that from the bottom of my heart!

Yesterday I posted a picture of me on facebook that I so didn't want to post because it shows that I am older and softer and not loving that but I MUST accept it sometime so why not NOW?

You dear friend just rocked a Mexican honeymoon vaca; remember??????

KOKO sweetie!

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CARLA-216 5/29/2012 11:51AM

    If not for baby steps, even now, goodness knows where I'd be.

Oh how I understand your ambivalent feelings when looking in the mirror.
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