Monday, May 28, 2012
What's the difference? IT's a huge internal difference. Looking at my reflection and seeing curves - sometimes they are embraced, but sadly more often than not I find myself disappointed in who I am. I saw that reflection today and the curves are more fluffy than firm. And my response to the other me was "Oh, I just don't care anymore what I look like!" But as I often have in the past, I try to work past those unhealthy thoughts!!! I retract the statement and say "I love and accept myself as is today!" I don't always believe it, but I figure if I keep saying it enough eventually I will believe it and stand true with those words. They will no longer be words, but loving feelings. Not that long ago I could look in the mirror and see firm, healthy curves - it's those times that I found those words were received more freely!! As I have said recently, I am feeling a bit - shall we say - unsuccessful!!! So many of you have sent love and support when I am not feeling optimal. It helps, so thank you!!! I will continue to ignore the reflection that only notices fluffy curves and criticizes them, I will admire the reflection for who she is today, knowing full well when I take care of my body and make healthy choices I am a happier person and the words "I accept myself as is today!" is truly more a feeling than just a group of words!
Goal for the week (still loving baby steps) is to eat more fruits and veggies this week (I'd like to see them be the main part of my meals).