Monday, May 28, 2012
I went to my parents house for my mother's birthday so I haven't really had a chance to get on here. My parents live 4 hours away and have very strange sleeping and eating habits so I always leave feeling tired and malnourished (because everything is a shade of brown/white/yellow ususally) but this weekend was oddly great. My dad kept asking what I could/couldn't eat because the last time he heard I had started taking some medicine that made me sick all the time... Yeah we never talk. I just used that to my advantage (and theirs) I got him to get fresh vegs, whole grain bread, fruits and no fried food. It was great! I love him (sometimes) lol.
With that said It was my moms birthday and we did have cake and we did barbeque but its okay. Overall this weekend was great. I didn't get in any workout really or track anything but I feel like overall good decisions were made.
I did have kind of a sad moment, many of them this weekend seeing my mom and how bad she is getting health wise and emotionally and just all over. Seeing her completely out of breath just from walking from one side of the house to the other kind of broke me down. She is only 43 and I worry that she will have a heart attack before she is 45. I see how in the past few years she has just lost control of herself and doesnt really care. Its very concerning and I'm not sure how to approach the situation. I just keep my mouth shut because I don't want to make her upset. It just makes me sad that she is slowly dying and doesnt care. (high blood pressure, depression, high cholesterol, gaining weight rapidly.. and like 15 other things i cant remember). I look at my grandmother who is in renal failure and taking dialysis 3 days a week, has sleep apnea along with many other complications along with diabetes...) Then I look at my grandfather who has had multiple stints in his heart and a quadruple (4) bypass surgery.... I see this generational thing and I feel like I'm next in line.
But I'm not next in line. This ends now. I've ended a lot of stuff in my family (first grandchild on my moms side to graduate highschool (out of 5), first person on both sides to get a college education.... etc) Now as I'm writing this and coming off of this very emotional weekend I know more than ever that these changes I'm making slowly will affect my family for generations to come. Bad health stops with me!
So enough with the doom and gloom I'm excited to be back home and into my routine tomorrow. on the way home today I stopped at the peach shed. This has to be one of my favorite places in the world. As I was getting close I kept thinking please be open please be open and there it was, the peach shed- open for business and packed with cars! AHH today is my lucky day. So I go up there and get some fresh, amazing peaches.... the orchard is literally across the street and right behind the shed. Cant get any fresher than that. This was always my favorite place to go when I was younger. they make amazing homemade peach ice cream and the peaches are just amazing. If you have never had a fresh picked georgia peach, you are missing out on everything good in life (ok maybe thats an exaggeration. but they are really that good). The peaches are so sweet and juicy that when you bite into it the juices run down your arm, no joke.
The lady there talked me into getting some fresh blueberries as well. I think that the blueberries will go great in some green smoothies this week. I was thinking that I might try my peaches in the smoothies but probably wont because they are just so amazing alone, I would hate to make a bad concoction and then regret "wasting" my favorite fruit. hah so I'll just be eating my peaches and drinking my greens. :)