Monday, May 28, 2012
I haven't blogged in nearly two years. Truth be told, I haven't blogged from the heart in nearly three years. During that time I've battled and struggled with my weight struggles in new ways and with amazing results. I've dealt with a major emotional trauma as a significant relationship blew up in my face and I've worked through physical complications leading to two major foot surgeries. I stopped blogging because it had become as much of a compulsion as eating, weight loss, and exercising had once been.
As my relationship with the Lord grows deeper and stronger - and oh so much more precious to me, He directs this journey so much better than I ever could have. The need for compulsive actions is worrying to my soul...a true deterrent to spiritual growth.
So what am I doing here today??? I don't really know. Except that I'm setting off on a journey to see what's next for my physically. Is this a scale weight issue? Am I willing to give up any of this hard won muscle mass to hit a specific number? What number is officially healthy for me - not according to anything other than total health and realistic fitness markers? How can I challenge myself physically to move to the next level of fitness all while maintaining balance and peace?
I'm excited, and apprehensive about this journey. But I am casting my cares because I'm not alone and that encourages me more than I can explain. My health, my wellness, my fitness, are all for His glory. And I continue in His strength one step at a time...