Monday, May 28, 2012
I have made progress since starting my journey in 2010. While I can't seem to get past the 10 lb mark, there is progress with my eating and exercise portion. What I need to work on right now is that I feel I get into a rut point every so often where I just feel blah and have no motivation. I don't talk on team chats, I don't want to participate in challenges, I don't care what I eat, I don't want to exercise ... I even feel it just in my daily life where all I want to do is just sit in front of the TV or at work not do anything productive. Totally going through it right now. I think going through it is hard because my husband has depression and being withdrawn and not really doing anything is how he acts normally. He plays computer or browses the internet and its so hard to get him to do anything else, and I feel when I'm in this rut I'm just like him. If frustrates me with him because he's home all day and yet things don't get done like dishes, but when I do it, I don't get mad at myself for not cleaning the toilet. I wish I knew how to push through these ruts but I don't have any answer. Maybe I should find a way to plot them more and see if it coordinates with anything in real life. No, its nothing to do with my monthly, but as school ends this week, maybe it coordinates with my breaks. Like my life is taking a break from school, so it feels like it should take a break from everything else as well.
Sorry if this doesn't flow or is hard to follow. Just random thoughts spilling out.