Sunday, May 27, 2012
So it's day 1 of my no-more-excuses lifestyle...
Background~ more about me: I was 12 years old when my mother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. I was 16 years old when I lost my precious grandfather to diabetes. I was also 17 years old when I almost lost my mother due to a stroke from stress when she lost her dad and had entrance exams for Humber River Hospital. I was 18 years old when I lost my remaining grandfather to lung cancer and 19 years old when I found out my mother was prediabetic.
About my mom~ She's a doctor with 2 kids, have no time to exercise or to eat properly and only gets 4 hours of sleep every night and 6 if she's lucky. she always scolded me about eating healthy and exercising. She gave me every reason to, spent thousands of dollars to help me, but I never understood why.
~the phrase I remember her saying was ~"I don't want you to end up like me"~
It meant nothing to me then. But now I realized. Diabetes is in my blood line.
I look into the mirror and I see myself. I don't look good in tanktops and bikinis. I look ~big~.
I would snack at night and say to myself "it's okay this one thing won't affect me." years later I kept going; my weight packed on and i started to get back aches due to a heavy chest. I couldnt run without being short of breath.
It wasn't until recently that I realized.. I can beat my illnesses and so can my mom. I can beat asthma. Just run. Gradually increase time and speed. I've run out of excuses. And I'm tired of giving excuses and crying because I couldn't control myself.
No more excuses.
I thought to myself. It's time.
So.... I'm going for a gym membership now that I have a job and a car. This time. It's for real.
What I wanna know is.. am I still going to run excuses for not going to the gym? or am I going to stick it out till the end and see where it takes me. Am I gonna reach my goal?
The most important phrase to me right now is... "YES I WILL & YES I CAN"
I'll see ya next time. :)