Sunday, May 27, 2012
I am listening to the radio and it is about big crises - busaccident in Norway, Estonia sinking, tsunami - and the planecrash in Gottröra where a plane went down three minutes after lifting and broke into three pieces - and nobody died! This was almost twenty years ago and they are interviewing a pilot who was on that plane - not working but on his way to a job. When things started to get wrong he noticed that nothing happened in cockpit, went there and asked if they wanted his help. They said yes and he helped througout the landing (on a field)
A they were almost down he returned o cabin but did not have time to fasten himself. Went unconcious for about half an hour .
He was back at work in six months but later retired because he never really felt good about flying. He became a heor in some companies - but also got critizised by some who said that if he would not have interfered the plane would have gotten back to the airport and landed unhurt. Of course nobody knows but this man regrets his activity. He says today thathe should have stayed in his chari and left to the working pilots to solve the situation.
This affect me - I think that it is a big tragedy that he has to live with this doubt - was it a good thing or a bad thing that he helped? From my perspective it was a good thing, everybody survived that accident, he did ask if they wanted him to help and they said yes... I think that it is a shame that he can´t get help to see that it was ok and he can be proud of himself...
Once again I am reminded that the past can´t be changed, only dealt with.
Today is mothers day in Sweden, my daughter has sent a wonderful card where she has written and drawn and it is wonderful, especially to a mothers heart... but it also awakens my guilt and shame over my past choices. I need to learn from that pilot - never get stuck in the past, trust that it was for the best and move on!