Saturday, May 26, 2012
I sucked big time yesterday! I'm pms-ing and have had the munchies for 2 days now. Well, yesterday I feel like I ate ALL day long. Not all of it was bad. But I didn't want to log it here. Things like, almonds with salt, about 6 Ruffles potato chips. I did have a nice salad for lunch, a protein shake for breakfast...no dinner >:( - I know! Then my mom made bread pudding and saved some for my husband. My husband, mind you!!!! Who had about a cup of the stuff???? MEEEE! Felt like such a pig afterwards. I also ate a small cheese quesadilla with my son because I'd made them for his afterschool snack. Suprisingly I'm not retaining any water this morning and just finished working out, so I feel a little better about eating all those empty calories yesterday. Lord, help me be stronger today! I don't want to quit now that I've got a good running start. This is about where I have fallen off my nutrition plans before. I'm not starving myself, but I miss cheese so much. I do not even want to get on the scale today. And I won't or I'll be more depressed. Why oh why did I let myself get this fat after I'd lost so much weight in 1999??? I was so active and peppy. Always going to the gym after work, no kids to worry about.....no stress. Just younger and active, wearing my size 5 clothes. Then something happened to make me feel so worthless and I wound up not caring anymore. I don't want to get off this track and find that lonely, self loathing girl again. Okay, enough venting. More later.