Saturday, May 26, 2012
So, my last blog I talked about adding 3 minutes to my C25K run and being a wuss about just 3 minutes. One of the wonderful friends I have made here on SP said that I should brag about it! Brag about it he said.
That made me think. I don't brag about anything having to do with myself. I brag about my husband and my 2 sons, about my dogs and my sisters and brothers, my nieces and nephews, my parents and even my in-laws. I don't brag about myself because I have the mindset of a lot of us with weight issues. I don't feel worthy. I am not kind to myself. I really struggle with this part of my personality. I am mostly unaware of the negative self talk because it is as much a part of me as the nose on my face. I know that it is low self esteem, that I need to "do" something about it. I just don't know what to do. It seems so easy for other people to say "You need to LOVE yourself"!
I know people like that. I know so many people who brag daily! They are so self assured and confident. Their love for themselves knows no boundries! They are one man bands who shout it from the rooftops!
If you know how to fix this, this........issue that I have, let me know. I want to love myself and I would love to ooze self confidence and mass appeal!! It's just not me at all. I don't know how to make it me.
One thing though, that I do feel good about and I can tell people with certainty. The C25K program that I started 8 weeks ago???? I have stuck to it religiously, and without fail have completed each step. I may have complained and whined my butt off, but I continue to go and do it every other morning. For that, I am proud. I believe the fact that I signed up for "The Color Run" 5k here in KC, is making all of the difference in that regard.
Thanks for listening (reading?) to this long winded post.