Musings about my weight
Friday, May 25, 2012
For the Golden Phoenix weekend challenge, one of our tasks is to write down what our weight is depriving us of.
Now, right off the bat, I can think of a few things:
- Feeling confident/sexy
- The ability to MAYBE wear a two-piece swimsuit... anywhere!
But really... is it my weight that's depriving me of that?
Health. For one, it's not neccesarily the weight, but the cause of the weight that's posing a risk to my health. Extra fat where it doesn't need to be. My weight itself, if it were on a taller woman/man, would actually be considered normal.
Feeling Confident/Sexy. Ehhh.. Really, this is mostly in my head. There were times when I was in the 200s... well... I can't really discuss in public. But let's just say, I'm not sure the weight is preventing me from feeling confident OR sexy. Sure, it's a convienent excuse, but I know, deep down, that I am capable of feeling BOTH if I ALLOW myself to.
That Two Piece. Really this falls into the confident/sexy field, as it requires me to be confident enough with my body to wear it. Who says I can't strut my stuff in a bikini? Others may not appreciate the belly rolls... but who cares about them? I'm not out to impress them.
Basically, my WEIGHT is not stopping me.. is not depriving me.. from anything I care to do. IF anything, my body shape, caused by my fat, would only be holding me back from wearing items I might want to wear.
Now, if I were an aerobatic gymnast, this may be a totally different blog ;)