I did pretty good this week until today. Not eating cereal was hard. I don't have any really healthy cereal in the house so I wasn't having any. This messed me up because cereal is my "go to" when I am hungry and want to pig out on bad stuff. So this morning I broke down and ate the end of the bag of Special K with red berries.

The day went good until I went to Safeway at 3:00 with out eating lunch first. It is amazing the pull food can have on you when you are hungry. And the games you play with yourself. In the end I won! I left with healthy dinner ingredients, a protein shake with no added sugar, and some kind of curry chicken wrap thing that seemed like it was okay for my goals.

When I write this (and re-read it) it sounds like I should be really proud of myself. I still feel depressed. Like I'm pouting because I still want the gourmet cupcakes...and not just one.

Dinner was good fish tacos. Some liked it and some didn't. Feeding six people isn't easy when I am crabby about sugar. Then I had to serve ice cream my husband bought. I did good while serving it up. I wanted some so bad! I knew if I had a little it would just open the flood gates. I did so good until the very last second. As I was putting the lid on I said to myself, "DO NOT even taste it!" Too late. I stood there and picked out the candy and ribbons of yummys for too long. Well as long as I broke down I might as well try the other one...the chocolate one.

In all reality I should be happy. I probably only ate 1/2 a serving, if that. I am just so worried that I won't loose any weight this week because I messed up. I feel like I wasted all the hard work this week because I gave in.

I am really beating myself up for this. Maybe I'm going to get my period.