Thursday, May 24, 2012
I apologize in advance, I'm pretty tired and this isn't the best writing I've ever done, I'm just grappling with my thoughts and need to get it all out eloquently or not.
Tomorrow starts the first of three weekends in a row that we will be having house guests. This weekend my parents and brother are coming. I have not told them that I have been losing weight as I want it to be a surprise. I have lost over 20 pounds since I last saw them in March.
My mom and I are very close and we usually plan the menu for our visits together. She has been telling me all week of the things she is bringing up to eat. It is a never-ending list as every time we talk she has added something to it. Whenever I ask if we truly need something she says "it will get eaten." I almost told her about my new eating plan many times this week, but I really want it to be a surprise, so the stress I am feeling about this is partially my fault for not speaking up. I just plan on sticking to my plan and adapting a few of the meals (Boca burger instead of hamburger, veggies instead of onion rings, etc.) but it is going to be hard around my family.
My mom shows love though food among other things and we are a family of big eaters. I don't want everyone to focus on me, what I am eating/not eating, and I don't want to go through explaining all of my choices and decisions. I am very much NOT a center of attention kind of person and I don't want to be in the diet spotlight. I know that they will be happy for me and that they want me to be healthy, but when it comes to family there is a lot of love but also a lot of stress.
I just want to have a nice weekend, stick to my plan, not have to talk about food and weight loss constantly, and not be left with tons of food I don't want tempting me in my house. Hopefully this will happen.