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Pity Party For One Cancelled

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Instead today I will be making lemonade and having a fun day.

Yesterday I saw trouble on the horizon -- a big stumbling block heading my way. Ordinarily I would not only made sure it hit me but also pinned me down for awhile. I would revert to insane thinking which would go something like this:

First I would put my negativity glasses on and see nothing but gloom and doom.
Of course, this would bring me great uneasiness and anxiety which would be very painful.
I would need to get rid of this pain immediately. How? I would stuff it down with a lot of sugary delights. This never got rid of the pain but it did dull it and tire me out.

Now that I had abused my body, I would then go on to abuse my spirit.
I would tell myself I was not worthy of anything. More pain, more self abuse and more food.

Then one day I saw that I had gained back those five pounds that I worked so hard to lose.

Yikes, Back to sanityville. I have to eat healthy, I want to live, I can do it. Things would go well for a few weeks until once again I would see trouble on the horizon.

I can't change the past but today is a new day. I can choose to try something different.

Yesterday I managed to avoid getting hit. I had a Virtual Binge Party and learned that I am much stronger than I give myself credit for.

Today I cancelled my Pity Party and am going to climb over the stumbling block and search for my gifts. How exciting.

Change your thoughts and you change your world.
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    Love reading your blogs...very relatable.
    2123 days ago
  • LE7_1234
    2123 days ago
    I love this post because so often I have been there with my "Super Victim" cape on. As a survivor of many things, including domestic violence, I have learned to recharge and see these obstacles as opportunities to prove that I am strong enough not to just get out of their way but to push back, stomp on and walk over over. Sometimes I feel myself slipping, then remind myself of a past victory that God brought me and see the trouble for what it is - nothing!

    Congratulations for graduating from VICTIM TO VICTOR!
    2123 days ago
    emoticon for climbing over those stumbling blocks! Good for you. And welcome to the Turtles, by the way. Great team! emoticon
    2123 days ago

    You know how to throw a party! Two great parties!
    2123 days ago
    Cheers to you for having a great attitude!!! Bet that lemonade tastes great!!
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    2123 days ago
    Yay for you! You're making lemonade!! emoticon I know all about those pity parties and I'm so glad you canceled yours.

    Cheers to changes, big and small, that help you along the way! emoticon
    2123 days ago
    Sweetie, your blog is right on time i sat here crying for it seem like the whole world was against me and going to take me down

    Thank you, thank you, thank you emoticon
    2123 days ago
    good for you :) great advice too
    2123 days ago
    Great advice, Kaysea!

    2123 days ago
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