Thursday, May 24, 2012
Instead today I will be making lemonade and having a fun day.
Yesterday I saw trouble on the horizon -- a big stumbling block heading my way. Ordinarily I would not only made sure it hit me but also pinned me down for awhile. I would revert to insane thinking which would go something like this:
First I would put my negativity glasses on and see nothing but gloom and doom.
Of course, this would bring me great uneasiness and anxiety which would be very painful.
I would need to get rid of this pain immediately. How? I would stuff it down with a lot of sugary delights. This never got rid of the pain but it did dull it and tire me out.
Now that I had abused my body, I would then go on to abuse my spirit.
I would tell myself I was not worthy of anything. More pain, more self abuse and more food.
Then one day I saw that I had gained back those five pounds that I worked so hard to lose.
Yikes, Back to sanityville. I have to eat healthy, I want to live, I can do it. Things would go well for a few weeks until once again I would see trouble on the horizon.
I can't change the past but today is a new day. I can choose to try something different.
Yesterday I managed to avoid getting hit. I had a Virtual Binge Party and learned that I am much stronger than I give myself credit for.
Today I cancelled my Pity Party and am going to climb over the stumbling block and search for my gifts. How exciting.
Change your thoughts and you change your world.