Thursday, May 24, 2012
So okay last few days I have decided to pop my bubble and give myself a slap and today seemed to be a good time. I fell off the wagon, let depression get me down lol pardon the pun! Bad eating habits have crept back in and my old slovenly ways too, I have really noticed it the last week, pigging out and feeling crappy!!! I let my emotions get to me yet again and have neglected to visit SP for 3 weeks now!!! Today I am tracking, so far I have under eaten but will have a good healthy meal to compensate this evening. I am not sure exactly why I punish myself this way? I reach a certain point, size ten, 11 stone, then bam I start eating and feeling low again.
There are other factors involved in my sudden changed direction and those I won't bore you with. The point being its each time I get a bit thinner I sabotage my efforts. I thought maybe it was because I thought it would magically take the pressure of depression away for good, it doesn't, not for me anyway it does however ease it immensely. So anyway I am back and in good spirets lets start again :). I am not sure how much weight I have put back on but its not a huge amount and I think that I have reached a good place in my journey where I can pull myself together a lot quicker then before. Onwards and upwards I say!!!! Here's to better days :)))