Wednesday, May 23, 2012
That's it, I've had it. I am tired of being defined by the little number on the screen. I am tired of letting it control me and ruin my day when I don't see the number I want to see on the scale. For so long now, I have been letting the digits I see on the scale rule me and define me. I let them have control and dictate my emotions and thoughts about myself for far too long. You see, I don't let other numbers in my life control me in the same way. I don't let my I.Q., SAT score, blood pressure, driver's license number, shoe size, or any other number in my life control me the way I let that little digital screen dictate my life. So if I am not ruled by the other numbers in my life, I am sure not going to let the scale be a dictator. Don't get me wrong the number on the scale is important, I don't want to see it go up any more, but I am not going to let it depress me, make me feel unworthy, or ruin my day anymore. I know that I am working hard to change my body. I know I am building muscle. I know my clothes fit differently. I know I a work in progress and I am just sick to death of letting the scale digits defeat me before I ever get dressed in the morning. I chose to look at that number and let it motivate me. I am going to use it to work harder, make better choices, and keep pushing when I don't think I can go any more. I refuse to be defined by a number.