Wednesday, May 23, 2012
It's been a week since I've blogged...since I've done anything really. Not sure what the problem is, but I feel just kinda blah. Tired, stressed, irritated, and don't really know why. Well, I do, but I just tend to let a lot of little things get to me. Why? What's the point in worrying and getting upset over anything? It doesn't change the situation or the outcome, I just wind up stressed/irritated. Over the last year, I've really been working hard to let go of my anger, my pride, and bitterness. I'm probably the worst person in the world to hold a grudge...and when I look back, how many times have I wronged or let someone down? Doesn't really seem fair to be that way. I'm starting to see that when I make progress, in any area of life, the old me/habits/things surface again and do their best to hold me back/down. I'm tired of being cranky, I'm tired of being negative, I'm tired of being tired...frankly, I'm sick of me right at this moment. I've made huge progress in me lately and slipping back into the old me is not an option I'm taking anymore. I didn't work so hard to give it all back. There was once a happy girl in me, one that loved life, her family, her friends, her work, and she got lost...again. I want that girl to come back, I want to be happy, I want to be social again, I don't want to be an angry jerk. Old me, come out of hiding, get over the crap you hang onto, and move on.