Just blah.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

It's been a week since I've blogged...since I've done anything really. Not sure what the problem is, but I feel just kinda blah. Tired, stressed, irritated, and don't really know why. Well, I do, but I just tend to let a lot of little things get to me. Why? What's the point in worrying and getting upset over anything? It doesn't change the situation or the outcome, I just wind up stressed/irritated. Over the last year, I've really been working hard to let go of my anger, my pride, and bitterness. I'm probably the worst person in the world to hold a grudge...and when I look back, how many times have I wronged or let someone down? Doesn't really seem fair to be that way. I'm starting to see that when I make progress, in any area of life, the old me/habits/things surface again and do their best to hold me back/down. I'm tired of being cranky, I'm tired of being negative, I'm tired of being tired...frankly, I'm sick of me right at this moment. I've made huge progress in me lately and slipping back into the old me is not an option I'm taking anymore. I didn't work so hard to give it all back. There was once a happy girl in me, one that loved life, her family, her friends, her work, and she got lost...again. I want that girl to come back, I want to be happy, I want to be social again, I don't want to be an angry jerk. Old me, come out of hiding, get over the crap you hang onto, and move on.
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    Don't be to hard on yourself dear. We are all human. Don't know your circumstances , but prayer and reading God's word allways helps me. If the same people are needing your forgiveness over and over it might be time to move pass them and make new friends or have less contact with repeat offenders. I am sure you will work threw what ever it is. Blessings to you. Paulette
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    OMG you are right. We are in the same place right now. I could have written this blog. So you posted a blog today, and that is a GREAT step and getting back on track. I will look for a blog from you tomorrow and you look for one from me. We can see how we are doing. Hang in there.
    2102 days ago
    I totally understand. As I am reading this I had to keep looking up at your name because it sounded so much like I had written it, only I could not put into words my feelings but you did. All I can say is its going to get better. Each day will feel a little better. Take small baby steps and pick one to change. Eventually you will look back and say wow look how far I have come. I work on me everyday. I have to remind myslef everyday to stay positive. I spent the last two weeks with my cousin who is forwhatever reason so jealous of me and would like to see nothing but see me fail at anything and throughout the years I have let her and others do just that. Its taken about 4 days now to get over that and get into a good place but today feels better and I know tomorrow will be better still. Get up eat a good protein based breakfast and concure the day. Good luck on your weight loss journey and with that will come the confidence to overcome all the other crap!
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