Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Iím going to try to make this short because I donít want to dwell on the negative, but these past five months have been truly difficult for me. Somewhere along the way I lost my mojo.
Donít get me wrong. Itís not that I gave up; I just started doing things without my spirit being there. I think it started when I decided I wasnít going to train for any races. Iíve been financially pressed. Iím still looking for employment, have gone to the temp agencies, have talked to friends, have taken workshops, have done everything possible and still, I am unemployed.
Slowly but surely I began to notice that my pants were starting to feel snug around the waist. I was craving foods that I could resist when I was training because I needed to have good food going into my body for my long runs. One treat became two, then three, and then I couldnít do without them.
Today, I feel like Iím back on track. For the last week Iíve been listening to inspirational tapes and some of them have seeped in and altered something in my consciousness. Today Iíll see if I can locate a race I can train for and just do it.