Thursday, March 29, 2007
It just about breaks my heart every time he says this one thing. I've asked him over and over and over in the last 7 years NOT to go there. Yet, he does. Each time he feels justified and each time I explain how it hurts me and each time he says sorry. But... it's repetitive. I'm tired of not being taken seriously when it comes to that.
So we fought, ate in separate rooms, went to sleep mad, woke up mad and when I called to ask WHY do you insist on going there? He simply felt justified. And what did I do? My response is, "look, you are basically making me choose between settling with a guy like you who will spurt out hurtful things when you see fit and feel justified about it and having a life possibly with someone who is simply kind" he says... we have to talk about this later. Very off-putting to someone who's wanting to duke it out, let me just say. It makes me furious. Like I want to pack up and just go. If you're not going to work it out and going to make me feel like an ass for being upset, what good is this? It's so aggrivating because just yesterday afternoon I was thinking about how much I love and value him. Ugh... I get so stinkin' frustrated and it gets me thinking... is this what I'm choosing for the rest of my life? I need to choose carefully. I know I'm just mad but honestly... I don't want to be disrespected and talked to like that. Rare as it may be, I don't want it at all.