Where do I go?
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
It's funny how life just kinda shuffles you along in certain directions. I hate anything being stagnant, i need things to always be different. This is why I have 2 crazy jobs that I never really have the same schedule at week to week. Even that is getting stagnant tho. I am starting to wonder if I should be diving back into my photography in preperation of having kids and trying to stay home more. It seems like a good time. Scott is done with school. I feel ehh about both my jobs. I could keep whichever one. About to hit 2 yrs with 2 hectic jobs, it's wearing kinda thin. Life does not need to be this hard. This woman came into my work and saw my photography yesterday and she literally went off on me. Asking me what was I doing here?!? She told me, she takes her own photography and she likes it but looking at my stuff, she can see what a real photographer is. Her wife is a art history and theory teacher at ISU and this woman had a background in art too. My coworker Sarah has been saying the same thing. I talked to my friend Carrie last night about all of this. She started up her own photography business, still works a graphics job on the side to support her family. But she gave me a lot of good tips to get started and how to protect yourself even from friends and family. I gotta keep thinking about this. I didn't get that bachelors degree to work in a small grocery store and be a mail messenger.
Life changes so much so fast but it feels like it's time. Maybe I will have some extra money from my ibonds to buy a new camera after the house payment is down. No promises I guess.