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I Felt Defeated... and then...

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

I had so much determination yesterday.... to do all the right things... to work out in the pool when I got home; etc. But as the day wore on and my sunburn became increasingly painful... I began to feel more and more ill. Everyone at work was telling me NOT to get back in the pool because of the chlorine...that I needed to give my skin a break for a few days. The sun wasn't going to be an issue because I was going to swim after sun set.

Anyhow... I knew they were right... plus, I didn't really feel like jumping in the pool once I got home either. I actually left work an hour early - because I felt so bad. I felt defeated... once again circumstances have pulled me down! I didn't want to jump on the treadmill because sweating would have irritated my skin & then I would have had to taken a painful shower... OUCH!!

So instead... I cuddled up on the couch with my 17yr. old daughter (who is sunburned WORSE than dear ol' mom) and we watched television... and ate!! I didn't feel like cooking... so she ordered pizza... I made sure to look up the calorie content; etc. and put it in my tracker... I ate 3 pieces as I had allowed for and was well in range of my calorie intake, fat, protein; etc. Then... as I laid there longer... feeling like I should be exercising or something... and knowing I couldn't (or else I'd be in more pain)... I ate MORE... 4 icey popcicles... just the frozen kool-aid kind, a bag of Peanut M&M's .... and an ENTIRE bag of popcorn!!!!! emoticon

I made sure to document everything in my nutrition tracker... and I went WELL over yesterday!!! emoticon I realized this morning that I must be using food as a comforting mechanism.... which is not at all GOOD!!! I must find something to do instead of reach for the "goodies"... but I just don't know what!?!?

On a happier note: I weighed today & LOST 3lbs!!!! My son & husband both gave me a "High 5"! Which felt as if I really had some supporters... felt good!!! Everyone here is proud of me... I just hope I can keep it up! I WANT to... I just need to find alternatives to my bad habits.

So... yesterday, I felt defeated... and then... this morning... I am encouraged!
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TAMARA6905 5/23/2012 11:16PM

    Emotional mindless eating was/is a problem for me to. I've noticed now that I'm a stay at home wife I eat a lot out of boredom, so I try to get up and do something every time I think about eating when I know I'm not really hungry. Distracting yourself until the moment passes is one of the best things to do. And if you feel you just have to eat something, grab something healthy. I got rid of all junk food to help avoid bad decisions, like 100 cal bags of popcorn as opposed to a full size bag. Keep it up you're doing great!

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MJ-SHE-BEAST 5/23/2012 1:04PM

    Mindless eating, comfort eating....it is the biggest problem for so many of us. You recognized it and you are dealing with it by honestly blogging and tracking. You deserved an evening of cuddling, though. And those high fives? Comfort food for the soul! I'm so glad you feel supported and encouraged. Congratulations on those 3 pounds!

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NASTARIAL 5/23/2012 9:42AM

    Oh, I sympathize with you. Anytime in the past when I had sunburns and wanted to do something exercisy (long before my resolution to get healthy and lose weight), I'd usually just go on a walk with friends in the early morning. It was slow-paced, I didn't sweat because it was early (autumn might have helped too), and I still found it enjoyable. As for reaching for foods and then regretting it.... I've had the luck so far of not having access to well, much of anything. You could try grabbing a piece of fruit, like an apple or two, slice it (or them), and have them with a little bit of peanut butter. That's solved some of my cravings in the past. Either way, it's sweet and good for you. AND it should spike you over food tracker. Hope it helps. emoticon emoticon

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