Wednesday, May 23, 2012
I had so much determination yesterday.... to do all the right things... to work out in the pool when I got home; etc. But as the day wore on and my sunburn became increasingly painful... I began to feel more and more ill. Everyone at work was telling me NOT to get back in the pool because of the chlorine...that I needed to give my skin a break for a few days. The sun wasn't going to be an issue because I was going to swim after sun set.
Anyhow... I knew they were right... plus, I didn't really feel like jumping in the pool once I got home either. I actually left work an hour early - because I felt so bad. I felt defeated... once again circumstances have pulled me down! I didn't want to jump on the treadmill because sweating would have irritated my skin & then I would have had to taken a painful shower... OUCH!!
So instead... I cuddled up on the couch with my 17yr. old daughter (who is sunburned WORSE than dear ol' mom) and we watched television... and ate!! I didn't feel like cooking... so she ordered pizza... I made sure to look up the calorie content; etc. and put it in my tracker... I ate 3 pieces as I had allowed for and was well in range of my calorie intake, fat, protein; etc. Then... as I laid there longer... feeling like I should be exercising or something... and knowing I couldn't (or else I'd be in more pain)... I ate MORE... 4 icey popcicles... just the frozen kool-aid kind, a bag of Peanut M&M's .... and an ENTIRE bag of popcorn!!!!!
I made sure to document everything in my nutrition tracker... and I went WELL over yesterday!!!
I realized this morning that I must be using food as a comforting mechanism.... which is not at all GOOD!!! I must find something to do instead of reach for the "goodies"... but I just don't know what!?!?
On a happier note: I weighed today & LOST 3lbs!!!! My son & husband both gave me a "High 5"! Which felt as if I really had some supporters... felt good!!! Everyone here is proud of me... I just hope I can keep it up! I WANT to... I just need to find alternatives to my bad habits.
So... yesterday, I felt defeated... and then... this morning... I am encouraged!