I wake up feeling much better, get to Starbucks, get some work done, and before 3, I'm DEAD. :( I'm so tired of feeling this way! I know I'm kicking this cold's far better than normal, but this cold is driving me NUTS! I want to be out running, I want to be doing my normal stuff and not wanting to go to bed all the time! GRRR!
I'm trying SO hard to take good care of me, but I'm so frustrated! :( I don't want to be sick!!! I'm splurging and getting myself some popcorn and a cakepop at Starbucks, then I'll prbably head home and go to bed.
On another note, I actually measured out a serving of spaghetti for dinner yesterday. I was SHOCKED to see what a serving SHOULD be. I will admit - I have easily eaten, 2, 3 x that at a restaurant - and that's after soup, bread, and a soda. Egads. NO WONDER so many of have not only weight but self-image issues. If we think THAT"s Normal...
I am seriously beginning to think that I might look into getting into the health industry in some fashion. The longer I do this, the more passionate I get about it. The weight-loss industry today is all about this quick fix or that quick fix. WHY does everything have to be instant? What happened to the times we WERE willing to work for what was important? and When did a number on the scale become the be all and end all of our self worth for so many of us?
And I'm not imune to any of this myself. I get depressed when i see the scale go up, even when all my other measurements are going down and clothes are definitely fitting better. Why? I frankly don't get it. I know I'm making progress, hell, I can feel it as I kick this cold's ass. But that number going up STILL has the power to make me depressed. And I don't know why I give it that power. I can't seem to avoid it. So I've stopped weighing myself so much.
BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE! Talk about what you're doing - when someone asks you what diet oyu're on tell them the truth - YOU'RE NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!! OPEN THE DOOR TO DISCUSS HOW YOU'RE MAKING PROGRESS!
That's why most of the posts - not quite all - but most - of my posts feed to facebook. I can't tell you how many people on my friends list have said to me, I see what you're doing, great job! or hey, you inspired me! if you can do it, so can I!
And I did it! Just got my green tea - COMPLETELY UNSWEETENED! This is something Ive been working on, weaning myself off the sweetener that is In my tea. :) the last cup of tea i had today was a medium (16) oz and had less than a quarter of an equal in it. This one's a full grande, with NO sweeter in it, and it's good! :D:D:D:
I'm trying to avoid sweeteners more and more, enjoying things as their original selves. Don't get me wrong, I love chocolate still, but I'm finding I want it less and less. I've been loving how fruit and veggies taste (a WEIRD sensation for me!) But one I'm very happy with. :)
As frustrated as I am with being sick, it's the FIRST TIME all winter and spring that I've been this sick - I've had days where I have a tummy ache or feel blech, but this is the first honest to goodness cold I've had. So I'm not that upset :)
Anyways, now that I've babbled at all of you, I'm gonna get going! Night all!