Tuesday, May 22, 2012
I haven't been working out like I should been because I am getting discouraged because I am not seeing any results like I thought I would. I feel like I have gained back what little weight I have lost and everyone who said they would work out with either got a job or the other friend got hurt at Big Lots. She fell and not she is having to go through therapy because of it. I feel very sorry for her because she was getting to where I think she was enjoying working out with me. I don't like going down to our gym by myself because I have had bad experiences at the gym when I was by myself and I don't want that to happen again. This guy kept watching and staring at me in a very strange way and it gave me a very uneasy feeling. I have started back going to my gym today by myself and I was the only one in the gym, but I am always looking over my shoulder every time I hear a door slam or open. I know I am being paranoid but I can't help it. But If I am to lose weight, I guess I will have to get over my fears and stuck it up and do it. If I had room in my house for the machines I work on down at the gym I would have them in my house and then I could do it every time I wanted and not be worried if something will happen. Do you think I'm wrong to feel this way or am I acting normal? Sometimes I feel silly for the way I feel. Everybody is telling me that it is something I am going to have to deal with and just do it and get it over with. I guess they are right but it's hard. Well thanks for listening. Have a great day!