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There it is! There it is!

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

The crowd noise grew substantially as I neared the final turn of the First Elk Grove "Running of the Elk" Half Marathon, seriously, it was like a wall of sound, welcoming us to cross the finish line which was still over 100 yards away. People blowing horns, music blaring, inaudible words falling around us like an avalanche....

I had been following a young man, probably in his mid-20s, not really wearing the best of running gear. He actually looked more like he was dressed for some time of leisure in front of the tube. As I was just a few steps behind him, I noticed that he had had about enough, his legs barely moving, the toll of logging over 12 miles had taken its toll on his body. As we rounded the last turn, he suddenly turned to me and, pointing feverishly at the finish line which had just come into view, yelled "There it is! There it is!" His smile lit up his entire face as he practically stumbled backward while continuing to point at the finish line. As I raced past him, I said, "Yep, there it is my brother...."

It occurred to me that in this young man's joy, I had forgotten really the thrill and satisfacti0n of accomplishment. I have become so saddened by myweight re-gain, that I completely lost the joy in the reality that even now I can still run 13.1 miles and not just once, but on consecutive weekends....I have forgotten the sheer realization that my daughter and I hiked up and back a moderate tough trail to a beautiful waterfall...that we did this together...for hours..and it was just our time! And that we soaked it all in afterward with our first ever visit to Sonic Burger and it was ok! I had forgotten the joy of going to the park with my sons and throwing the frisbee around and laughing as we ran around, missed some easy ones, caught some tough ones and came close more than once of throwing that disc into the neighbors' yards! How could I have become such a pity party attender? How could I have forgotten the joys of these moments that exercsing still allows me? Enough. I may not have my weight where it needs to be, but I can still run, I can still laugh, I can still make memories and I can still soar.

Next time I start having one of those "woe is me moments", I am going to remember the young fella's words as he spied the finish line, "There it is! There it is!" and just remember and take comfort in the things that I can do and just accept that there is still work to be done.

Hmmm, I still think I have a few "There it is!" moments left in me. How about you?

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
BOVINEWIFE 7/16/2012 8:39AM

    Hey, Caliman! I am sooo proud of you, dear friend. You made it! You literally worked your butt off, and successfully transformed yourself from a couch potato into an athlete! Holy cow! You ran MARATHONS! You've added years to your life and are enjoying them with your wife and kids. You have inspired so many SparkPeople with your blog, and still do. Life happens though. Changes in our lives... our habits... our mindset. You stopped to take a breather, but forgot to take up your cross again the next day. It happens. I'm just so happy that despite your weight re-gain, you can still run laps around me! You are still an inspiration, Buddy! So, don't disappear from SparkPeople for too long. Let's start back up with some portion control, and healthier dessert choices today. We'll see what happens tomorrow. emoticon

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STEVENGO2 7/3/2012 10:04PM

    I was thinking earlier today to give up on Sparks but reading your words tonight reminds me of why I began this journey, caused me to think and to continue on my journey. Yes my number on the scale has slowly gone in the wrong direction, but I should NOT give up. Time to find that motivation again and spark again!

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ABSOLUTZER0 5/24/2012 5:51PM

    Absolutely amazing! I'm happy for you! Throwing the frisbee is therapeutic for me. It does wonders.

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SNUZSUZ 5/23/2012 7:59PM

    Great blog! Very inspirational!

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ROCKYCPA 5/23/2012 2:03PM

    Good for you - congrats on your run!!

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KAYDE53 5/22/2012 11:47PM

    emoticon emoticon Once in a while, I have those moments too! Good for you!!

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MISS_VIV 5/22/2012 10:59PM


You are a winner in my book...

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BKNOCK 5/22/2012 9:20PM

    Yup, it is the little things in life that count!

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CARTOONB 5/22/2012 9:01PM

    I am so glad to hear that you found it again. I will have to make sure I see my finish lines too! emoticon

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BYEFATNANNY 5/22/2012 5:10PM

    Great job on the HM!!! Great inspirational blog. I'm eating fine but, I've been struggeling with my "moving". Trouble going up stairs, short rounds of yard work, wear me out. I'm try to get it back, thanks for the blog I see some light at the end of the tunnel.

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BERGBA7 5/22/2012 3:40PM

    Wow congrats on a half marathon... that's still very far for me but I will have my personal There it is moment in 2 weeks when I run my first 8.5k.
I wish you lots of great runs!
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LISAW/3 5/22/2012 3:37PM

    Great blog, John! All too often we lose sight of the big picture.
I am in a bit of rut right now, not happy with my 10 pound weight gain, but lacking the motivation to fix it. I lost sight of the fact that despite my weight gain, I have still lost 50 pounds and kept it off for 2 years and I am still in the healthy BMI range.
Thanks for the reminder! There is so much for to this all than the mere numbers!
Congrats on another HM!

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