I love Monday's. As much as I love having my family home on the weekends, I am greatly relieved when they all go back to school/work. I have a chance to breath, to straighten up, clean up. I can clear my head (at least I try).

Today is different than any other Monday. Today is the day I joined SparkPeople. My psychiatrist recommended it to me. It's free and at my fingertips. Question is, can she do it? I can only try. The road to 276 lbs has been lonely. Most of my weight has been brought on my mood stabilizing drugs and anti-depressants. So, fat and happy or thin and suicidal...I have to find a balance. My life depends on it.