Monday, May 21, 2012
I was going through some old pictures. I thought this one would be appropriate since today is our 8th wedding anniversary.
Matthew and I have been together for 12 years. He has been with me through thick and thin, ups and downs, the highest highs and the very lowest lows. There have been more times than I can count that i didn't feel like I deserved him. Of course he never saw me like that. It never even occurred to him. There was a time that I was embarrassed to even go out in public with him. There was a time when I was so terrified that he would leave me for someone prettier, thinner... I was a fool. I tried to push him away before he could do that. I was hated myself so much I couldn't understand how or WHY he could or would love me. He didn't let me do that.
We are on the verge of some very wonderful and exciting things that would have never happened if he had let me drown in my own blind foolishness. He was never the blind one. I was. Love held on. And I thank God everyday that he was man enough to stand up to my ridiculous notions that I wasn't good enough. He had enough faith in us for the both of us and carried me through the darkest times in my life. This is my love letter to him, for all to see. I am not ashamed of myself anymore (not ALL the time anyway. i'm still working on it
). We will have our Happily Ever After because the best is yet to come.