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Starting over


Monday, May 21, 2012

Well, I have been MIA on Spark for awhile now. Why? Several reasons and some may even be excuses, but I am back and that is all that matters.

To make a long story short, after my Half Marathon in February my foot has been and continues to give me issues. My podiatrist thinks that I sprained it or jammed the joint that is attached to the big toe, 2nd and 3rd toe. So, I am in pain and it is still swollen. It doesn't hurt as much as it used to so I am slowly going to start running this Wednesday for 20 minutes and then build up to longer runs. I don't even know if I can run straight for 20 minutes anymore after having 2 month off, but I will try my best and anything is better than nothing right?

Second, I have realized that I have been mildly depressed. I think a lot of it is from my foot issue but also a lot has been going on at work. Our store manager was fired due to some inappropriate discussions amongst him and co-workers and also for performance issues (rumor has it). I have been working more hours than normal - not complaining- but I am not used to getting up at 4am and then working until 1pm and then taking care of my son when I get home, I am tired ALL of the time!!! It doesn't matter if I get 10 hours of sleep I still feel tired and crappy. Ugh!

I have also been allowing myself to eat a whole bunch of junk. I am very thankful that I have a job where I do not sit on my butt all day. I walk A LOT! But since I have been eating junk I feel like crap and also feel guilty afterwards. I beat myself up about it and I know that I shouldn't but I do. I wish I could stop the madness! After so many years of doing the same thing it is very hard to change and I am really making an effort to do so.

My mom's health isn't the greatest. She has shingles now for the third time and is also prediabetic. However, she has taken control of her diet and has lost approx. 40 pounds since taking on a low sugar, low carb diet. I still worry about her because she is also depressed and I call her everyday to check up on her to see how she is doing. She is 78 and I love her and worry about her.

I have a lot on my plate, but I NEED to get back to taking care of me and it starts this week. I am not a quitter and I will continue to fight for me. Hope I didn't moan and groan too much.

I may not be here everyday, but I will be checking in almost every day.

Happy Monday!!!

Lianne
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WONDERWOMAN 6/1/2012 8:55PM

    Welcome back Lianne. You are back and that is all that matters. I hope you get the support you need to overcome the challenges you are facing. We are here for you!

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PHYSEDTEACHER 5/23/2012 1:11PM

    hmmmm... sounds familiar...I too have been MIA...and am coming back full force after bronchitis, and surgery...so I do know the feeling...but..obviously we want it or we wouldnt be here....:) so HANG IN THERE!!!!!! emoticon

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MATTERJT 5/23/2012 10:58AM

    Life happens and we all run into times where we can't do what we want to do. But as long as you know it and are doing your best to work through it, that's all that matters. Injuries happen to all of us. They are not fun and they aren't great motivators, but you are doing your best. Rest is obviously what you needed, so you listened to your body. As far as the eating junk goes, we all have our moments. At least you are aware that you are eating it and are trying to do something about it. This is a great blog! I think it's great that you are working through things and are aware of everything. That's progress in itself. :-) Good for you! :-)



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MELOSPARKLE 5/22/2012 10:39PM

    I'm sorry that you are having a rough time right now. I k kw you can make it back to your previous fitness levels though - it will just take some time. Be patient and celebrate every victory!

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GOPINTOS 5/22/2012 9:41PM

    Yes you are back now. Time to make it count :)

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MUMMAMICHELLE 5/22/2012 7:46PM

    You've come to the right place Lianne, welcome back. I feel like many of the same things you have said apply to me although different circumstance, working and caring for children, plus other responsibilities make us tired and get lost in it all. You can do this!

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GLMOM2 5/22/2012 3:51PM

    emoticon back to us!

Glad to see you sparking with us again!

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MICHSTATE 5/22/2012 3:25PM

    Hello!!!! It's nice to hear from you again!!!!:-)

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ONE*BUSY*MOM 5/22/2012 11:22AM

    Wow, you have a lot going on right now and they are not excuses at all -- they are real life issues. I think you're doing a great job balancing everything that's going on and eventually you'll be able to get back into the swing of things on SP, too. You can do it! Good luck & take care.

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JILLIANPRNCSS 5/22/2012 5:54AM

    You can do it, I believe in you

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ERLYWA 5/21/2012 10:18PM

    Boy, can I relate to your blog!!! My downslide started last summer with a hip injury, bad medication, and a litany of cold/flu bugs. Few months down the road and I was completely off SP and had gained back all 30 of the lbs I had lost.

But, like you, I realized that no matter the stresses I need to take care of myself first. So I am coming back this week as well! :)

We can BOTH do this. Hang in there, and keep taking care of yourself!

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JULIA_RUN2SMILE 5/21/2012 8:27PM

    I am glad you are back - I miss you!
I know the painful feeling of having a foot injuries... not being able to go and train... I hurt myself after my 13.1 last year and it still bothers me ... I am back running but not to the level I wish I would be doing. Take it easy and listen to your body. I did cross training for many month- just to maintain the cardio... and yoga too (good for my mental and improving my balance).
When stressed and fatigued - food is often a source of comfort... especially when time is also lacking! Start with some small SMART goals - share them (with us maybe... so you get some support!!!) and make sure to include Self-Care in your daily routine! (I even set it up in my other goals trackers!).

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HEALTHY1JESS 5/21/2012 8:01PM

    You didn't "Moan and Groan"--you just told it like it is. Make a small goal and some steps to reach that small goal. Then build on it. You can do anything! :-)

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OOLALA53 5/21/2012 7:19PM

    Blogs are just for this purpose.

I know that having to get up early and get going somehow makes me more tired, too. It doesn't matter that I may have more time later. I'd rather have more time earlier to take my time!

You can't be responsible for everyone else's doings and thoughts. Keep up with your mom and let her know you care. Suggest she get help with her thoughts and resultant down thinking, if necessary. You can't make her happy. If she is religious, maybe you can get a minister or outreach group involved.

Try to resist the junk, not from a good girl/bad girl perpsective, but just because you know you will feel more vital without it! I've almost never wished I had eaten junk when I had the chance, and have almost always been happy when I stuck to my reasonable meals. I often have to remind myself of that at the right moments. emoticon

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BADBOY97 5/21/2012 6:35PM

    HEY GIRL TAKE CARE OF YOUR FAMILY FIRST AND YOUR MOM.

BECAUSE YOU ONLY HAVE ONE MOM AND SHE HAS BEEN THERE FOR YOU

IN THE PAST AND FUTURE, I KNOW WHAT FAMILY MEANS I LOST ALL

MY FAMILY FROM 2007 TILL 2010 LOST MY OLDER BROTHER IN 2007
AND THEN LOST MY MOM IN 2008 AND LOST MYNEXT TO THE OLDER

BROTHER IN 2009 AND THE NEXT BROTHER TO ME I LOST HIM IN
2010 AND LOST MY SISTER IN 2002 AND MY FATHER IN 1954
SO I KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO HAVE YOUR MOM AND SHE IS LUCKY TO

HAVE A DAUGHTER TO CARE FOR HER AND LOVE HER ,YOU WILL COME

OUTOF THIS PROBLEM WITH YOUR FOOT AND DEPRESSION YOU JUST

PICK UP YOUR BOOT STRAPS AND SAY IWILL DO THIS AND YOU WILL
BE FINE THAT IS WHAT I DID AND YOU WILL LOOSE WEIGHT AND YOUR

PROBLEM WILL BE GONE . ENOUGH OF MY TALKING HOPE YOU HAVE

A GREAT DAY AND A GREAT WEK AND LOVE YOUR FAMILY ALWAYS TTYL emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RHONDALYN10 5/21/2012 6:25PM

    Welcome back Lianne!
First - take care of yourself!
Hopefully your funk is gone and you can be more focused.
Best wishes!!

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