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A set back.

Monday, May 21, 2012

I'm hitting my first set back. And with Shavuos around the corner I need to re-group.

And a need to re-evaluate.

Why am I doing this?

Is it so the size 16 skirt I got (it's so wide!) gets too big?
Is it so I can be, with the help of G-d, healthy to raise my children to, also with the help of Gd, Torah, chuppah and maisim tovim (good deeds)?

I'd like to say it's the latter, but somehow part of me is a little miffed with the size 16 skirt. Even though it's new and even though it's part of a badly needed holiday outfit. And even though I'm halfway there to having lost 10% of the body weight I had back in April, which, I keep on reading, brings health benefits all of it's own.

So I'm reminding myself of concepts/phrases I've learned:

1. yerida letzorech aliyah (a descent in order to ascend). Sometimes it seems like I'm going backwards when really it's in order to go upwards. This has so many applications and it has one here, as well. Okay so I went up a little. Maybe this was in order for me to better in the long run?

2. The Chofetz Chaim, zt"l, taught in his introduction to his sefer (book) of the same name about the laws of proper speech, speaks about how the yetzer hara (evil inclination) tells us these laws are not possible to keep, when really, the laws were given to people, and with knowledge of how to keep these laws, and with Gd's help, we'll be able to keep them. Similarily, I am tempted to say things like, you've stopped losing. Why bother? It's obviously too hard for you to do. And Shavuos is coming up. Enjoy Shavuos. And you can't enjoy Shavuos without cheesecake and blintzes and ice cream. And anyway you can start again right after Shavuos.
No! I'm going to keep trying. I'll include a little treat for myself but most of the meals are going to be composed of foods that are not going to derail my goals.

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  • SHOSH770
    Not all orthodox women are thin but the ones who are maybe have good metabolism or work hard.
    1974 days ago
    I honestly don't understand how so many observant Jewish women stay so thin! All of our holidays seem to revolve around fattening food!
    1974 days ago
  • SHOSH770
    Thanks for responding, btw.

    1975 days ago
  • SHOSH770
    That's easier than it looks! To quote a kid's song by Country Yossi:
    "Yetzer Hara you're a real mean guy
    You drive me crazy and I'll tell you why...
    oy vey set me free
    yetzer hara, stop picking on me!"
    1975 days ago
    I think part of the journey is accepting the yetser hara and telling it, "yeah, so what? I'm going to do this, anyway!"
    1975 days ago
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