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I See You

Monday, May 21, 2012

I see you.
Walking past me everyday.
Giving me that look.
Like, I don't deserve to breathe the same air as you.
Like, I'm not good enough to be in your mere presence.
I see you.
I see you.

I see you, and I don't care.
You can't hurt me anymore.
Not now.
Not ever again.
You think I'm jealous of you, but I'm not.
Not anymore.
You have nothing I want.
After all I've gone through.
Been through.
And come out of.
What you have is worthless to me.
I used to be jealous of you.
Wished I could be like you.
But that day.
Is gone.
And it's not coming back.

The girl, that I was.
Is dead.
She hated herself.
Everything about herself.
She never thought she was good enough.
She listened to the lies.
And belived them.
She wanted to kill herself.
She wanted to die.
And now.
She is dead.

She died, and I'm here.
I look almost the same as her.
Just older.
And taller.
But, if you look closely, you can see it.
If you look, you'll see.
I'm not afraid.
Not anymore.
Because I don't need you.
Not anymore.

You've never been where I was.
And you've never seen what I saw.
You weren't there.
I was.
And I made it through.
And what I have, nothing can compare to.
It means nothing to me.
If you want it, you can have it.

Don't get me wrong now.
I'm not angry.
Not angry.
I pity you.
You actually think that all that means something.
That having it makes you someone.
But it's meaningless.
And it will fade away.
And you.
Will be left.
With nothing.

I'm not who I was before.
After it all.
And through it all.
And despite it all.
I am strong.
I'm not done yet though.
Still a work in progress.
But I'm closer.

And, if you look, you can see my anthem.
It plays in my eyes.

I was broken.
But now I'm fixed.
I was weak.
But now I'm strong.
I was empty.
But now I'm filled.
I was dead, but I've been resurrected.
I was gone.
But now.
I'm back.
I'm here.

I'm here and I'm staying.

So yes.
I see you.
Walking past me everyday.
Giving me that look.
I see you.

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DIANEMAR 6/1/2012 7:00AM

    here is the link,
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DIANEMAR 5/27/2012 1:39PM

    Great!!!!! May I repost this? I was reading in a blog on discrimination against obesity, and there were some critical statements made and I think this would be the best answer!!! I will use, 'countess' as the author.

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BARB5970 5/22/2012 7:55PM

    While reading this poem it brought a tear to my eye. I could feel your strength and emotion in each verse. Thanks for sharing. Loved It.

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TALENKARR1 5/22/2012 11:28AM

    You are a constant insparation to me love you girl!!!!

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DMANN104 5/22/2012 10:45AM

    WOW! Amazing poem!

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SLIMLILA 5/22/2012 1:16AM

    Awesome!!! Haven't seen you around in awhile, but knowing you probably wrote this poem, tell me you have been doing incredible... emoticon

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BECKYB73 5/21/2012 4:56PM

    FANTASTIC!! This is like an anthem for us all!!!

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MJ-SHE-BEAST 5/21/2012 3:08PM

    Powerful and I am certain very cathartic for you as well! Thank you for sharing this with us!

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KIMMYLOU2012 5/21/2012 1:04PM

    Wow that was very expressive!

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ERLYWA 5/21/2012 12:22PM

    Very powerful!

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SUPERMOUSE35 5/21/2012 10:13AM

    I love this. Very powerful.

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DEBJAE 5/21/2012 9:55AM

    That's awesome. Very well written. Love it!

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